Friday, August 06, 2004 »
suddenly .... i just felt so much emotions and feeling go through me.... its weird.... i look back into my life... the things i did.... the things i wanted.... i organisations i was in.... the things i went through.... it all seem like it was just yesterday... was listening to a recording of a Band...
i suddenly felt that when i was there few years back.... i wanted to be in that band.... I was in that band for a period of time... and i left it.... WHy is that so? coz i found out certain things and was unhappy about it... and left? some pple try so hard to get into it.... but i just left.... in the times when they needed my part the most few weeks before a performance.... how could i do that?
Is it all Bad? Is there any good at all?
The things i wanted.... a clarinet.... now i have 2... my two darlings.... my Bb and my A clarinet... I've got it when some pple are dying to save up for it... I've got it... I've got other things where pple are dying to get... I've got them... But i'm not happy at all...
WHy is tt so? Beats me....
THeres a person stalking me in school... i have no idea who that person is at all.... who is that blind to want to stalk me? its really weird....
is it companionship that i lack? haha.. well.... not caring whether its a guy or a girl... I Don't care man... (no puns intended) ... I'm not homophobic... haha... well.... just not sure who would even be interested manz.... sigh....
sianz.....
havent been practising the whole week.... damn bad.... no mood at all... my tone sucks.... its not focused at all.... too open sounding.... i need warmth and being mellow.... well... its not easy.... i'm not sure why.... its been 1 year under Jean .... and i'm still "LIKE THAT".... damn sian lor... and she's gonna leave in September.... i'm going under someone else who's damn strict and fierce... just hope i can live up to the new teacher's expectations.... heard the expectation of that teacher is damn high... i can live up to the expectations.... just how much do i have to work for that...???? considering the workload in school is piling up like shit now... and confusion and not understanding what's going on in class makes it all worse....
To hell i go...
oh well.... i'll burnt perfectly well in hell.... golden-crisp.... haha.... anyone for Roast-Daniel? BEWARE: High Cholesterol content... eat at your own risk.... MUAHAHHAHAhahaa......
I'm so dead this year..... time to change.... damn dead now... sian sian sian.... dying.... rotting.... gtg.... its 2 already.... have lesson at 3... and i have yet to eat lunch and stuff.... goner... bye...
8/06/2004 01:41:00 PM