A musician's life?

2008-01-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

Happy 2008 !!! new blog address http://angstinspire.blogspot.com

see ya there !!!

2007-12-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

Alright, 2007's coming to a close.

tonnes have happened thus far, i think i'll be changing my blo, this blog needs a closure i guess, will post my latest blog add here soon, check out for updates.

CIAO ... Happy New Year's !!! --Naflar

2007-11-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

Since i've been out of course, which has been approximately 2-3 weeks so far, I can actually say i've learnt much more useful skills as compared to the 5-7 weeks(if u cosidered the period where i did nothing during field camps due to my back pains).

ironic isn't it?

from the sideline, i get to see the way things are being runned(is there such a word?), maybe executed is a better word, there is simply nothing efficient being done, things are slowly done, sometimes even not done and arrows will be seen flying across the globe.

well ... thats basically how things work, and i believe it is so for the entire organisation and not this particular company i'm in. sadly the case, many of the appointment holders firstly, do not have a strong education foundation, so somewhat things are run in a 'i-think-this-should-be-the-way-it-should-be-done' manner and also theres the 'my-seniors-done-it-this-way-last-time-so-maybe-i-should-follow-since-it-worked' like gazillion-eon-lightyears ago??!?!?

thats exactly how sad it is, and to be the on looker really just irks me. just because you are the appointment holder or 'someone-(not so)important' , doesn't necessarily means you are right, sometimes(or most of the time) actually, they are not the ones doing things properly, tsk.

oh well , i have serious doubts on how much i'm going to enjoy myself in the weeks to come, i guess i just have to try to look on the bright side of things.

found some very nice clips, really nice , some very very funny, Kristin Chenoweth, she's like my current favourite woman la... she's so damn hilarious, she's such an excellent actress(broadway) and singer ... well... go search for her, i'll post afew clips here too ... haha ... ciaoz...

other clips:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkdM_jHEsjo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OtnXn2b6LA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBoT6amlDyM&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1LySr2P00Q&feature=related

enjoy ... she has other really nice songs, go search for them

2007-11-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

I'm finally out of course!!! well , as happy as i may be, i feel a tinge of sadness la. had very nice buddies for once, and got to leave them, they're gonna pass out as corporals and me, stuck as a private, but oh well, with the ranks comes greater responsibility which is what exactly i do not want to be given.

I have serious doubts on how some of them can lead next time.

and i'm pretty sure i won't get into band too, coz the old hag probably wouldn't agree to letting me off, which is exactly what is needed first for the band to accept me.

well ... i wouldn't mind getting combat pay in a combat vacation la, its really more money, that i can save for future studies, tough decision makings.

2007-11-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

well ... alittle update on my life (life? you call it life?) , i think i'll be out of course soon , coz i've been getting recurring back pains and for the lack of interest in whatever i'm doing here right now.

hmmm ... i'm actually rather interested in whats going on, just that, seriously speaking, the execution of things are really to a certain extent disgusting, we are treated worse than animals. Lack of respect. That basically sums it up, we're told what not to do, but what we're seeing (the way things are done) is an exact replica of what they constantly preach. How sad is that?

I am so going to try to get a transfer to band. i will try as hard as possible. My music making is so going down the drain, thank god for my weekly sunday dosage of philwinds for keeping my spirit and chops up.

well ... i'm completely in a blank now, i hate the people who thinks they are all so mighty, screw them, if u have a problem with my voice, then thats seriously your problem.

2007-10-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

alright ... its been 1 month in sispec ... not sure if i should go on and push myself for whats to come. I'm incurring pains on my back, if the pain persists, i'll really push for myself to be taken out of course. Oh well ... it seems that people are seeing me to completion of this course, but i really don't know, where is my music going to head towards if i were to put it on an extremely long hiatus?

oh well ... training has been madness ... navigating for close to 12 hours in one of the training grounds in singapore for impossible to find checkpoints. there were instances where i was submerged in knee-high mud level due to the heavy downpour, and i was actually just three-four arms length away from a hive that was situated in a low growing tree. Despite of that, i still gave out a loud "AH!" roar ... coz i wasn't sure if i was gonna sink in !!! Bwahaha... well ... i was getting very emo in School (its a training school afterall) , pple were making insults at my voice as usual ... don't let me switch on my saddistic-killer-care-not-for-your-life-or-death-mode ...

went to watch a dance performance alone last week because of the early book-out due to hari raya... Zurich ballet company performing to Bach's cello suites ... well... for one : The suites (III, IV & V i think) were awfully played, it started out mediocrely, picked up pace ... and then went completely downhill towards the end of the performance. I applaud the non-stop 90 mins of playing though. For the dancers, i feel the males were much better, however, the males were like trying to steal the limelight by executing stronger twists and what nots while in a group, i guess my perception of 'dancing in a group' is whereby all dancers dance in sync despite being stronger or not... if not ... why do they call it a 'group' or 'ensemble'? for the females ... i guess they weren't given very prominent roles though i think they could have pulled it through.

for the audience ... they seemed to have concert etiquette... and then u hear giggles halfway ... there were 2 young expat little girls , they were giggling at one of the dance moves (although i would like to add that it was actually very funny indeed), i would have laughed out louder if i were their age, but i wouldn't have been watching if i was their age. tsk ... its sad la ... we need to expose children to the arts at a tender age, but we have to expect them to behave more maturely. how is it possible to strike a balance?

on saturday, caught up with piggie, phoenix and lauli ... would say that it was an interesting evening ... thinking that La Camicia was a dining haunt ... only to find out something outrageous (to us at least) ... met Anders halfway through... muahaha... its a damn small world i have to say, meeting him with us and then having a link to lauli ... haha

here are some pics ....

BEFORE:

AFTER:

I guess 4 months can really change people ... haha ... as experimented and proven by 3 live guinea pigs who went on seperate expeditions and met up after 4 months of arduous hard missions .... MUAhahhahahahah .......

alright , i think this is my longest post yet for so long ... haha ... got to go !

2007-09-30T15:01:00.000+08:00

The week has come to an end ... and another tough week is just ahead ...

i dunno how long i can take it ... i will try my best ... haiz ... damn sianz...

new environment, new people, nicer pple, lots of things to do ... arghh...

2007-09-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

alright... been very very long since my enlistment... i graduated from bmt already... officially POP-ed ...

well... many life changing experiences i would say, mentally more matured now, more sensitive to others.. haha !

well, posting's out...i'm gonna be in SISPEC !!!!!! MUAHAHahhaa.... who can actually believe it ...? eh ? i can't bring myself to acknowledge this fact, its so surreal...

oh well ... nothing much to talk abt really, just wanna get over and done with ns...

ciaoz... i'll try to update as often, if anyone still bothers reading here... HAHA

2007-05-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

27 more days to my enlistment...

as the day draws nearer ...

it seems to me that i'm trying to grow up quickly , first of all, i'm turning 21 soon...

damn .... i have so much work to do i need to complete it within these few days, cannot drag anymore ... DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE !!!!!!

am extremely disappointed with certain people ... the way they treat others... i believe that the our world is based on sym-biotic relationships ... one cannot lose the other and its hard to seperate each other despite differences....

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE .... so much work to do !!!!!!

am disappointed with how some people do certain stuff and still dare to complain about others ...

screw you all manz....

2007-05-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

i'm fucking sian ...

sian for the fact that ...

- what is being preached is totally irrelevant and is based on personal preference ...

- whatever we're doing is so impossible to be applied to such a scene ...

- what is relevant isn't given emphasis compared to the others ...

- void ...

- blank ...

- waste of time ...

here are 2 fucking amazing videos... so damn fucking cool ... enjoy !!!

2007-04-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: Manic Depressive You have extreme cycles of highs and lows. Sometimes you feel like you don't know who you are. One week you could be very hyper and happy and the next week you are slow and depressed.
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
Paranoia
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_mental_disorder_do_you_have">What mental disorder do you have?

OOOOoooooh..... beware .....

2007-04-14T01:54:00.000+08:00

SYF central judging of bands(don't want to use concert bands, coz there are symphonic and marching bands too...) . Well ... quite a controversy ... to me at least ... the judging had been fair from monday up till wednesday.

Thursday, lots of screwed up bands got silvers instead of bronzes as well, the bands who were of the same standard as those on wednesday got silvers instead of bronzes ... what can i say?

congrats to Commonwealth sec, Xinmin sec on getting the GOLD.

A very big congrats to Ang Mo Kio Sec for getting the Gold with Honours !!! really proud of you guys, you guys didn't push as much as you did before, well done!!! too bad i missed the performance, only can hear recording.

congrats to greenridge on attaining the bronze !!! such a miracle, clarinets sounded quite good... happy....

congrats to pingyi on the silver !!! first time taking part in indoor ... great effort!!!

the biggest congrats to springfield on attaining the wonderful bronze.... don't know what else can wake you people up? cop?

what else do you want? nothing we can do anymore....

to the other schools... fairfield... cedar... although you didnt get a gold... its ok... at least you've tried your very best!

ciaoz

2007-04-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

The singapore band scene is finally going to a facelift.... with 6 out of 7 judges from overseas.... it is finally a fair ajudication....to me at least...

the standard's definitely raised now, and hope the fair judgement continues.... definitely has mixed views on certain schools... but yah....

congrats to the gold medalists.....

set pieces should be given more time on it....

2007-04-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

Current weight: 78kg

Well... haven't blog since sunday i think.... went for ex-class chalet at Aloha loyang... i must say... its such a big bungalowfor such a low rate....

monday, went to fairfield ... really disappointed .... sec 1s starting to rebel like their seniors ... finally flared up at them .... really pull the junior band down.... want to see how they feel.... being treated like shit... if anything will happen...

went for yoga....

then class chalet... actually quite disappointed too ... as usual....pple just hang around waiting for food to be cooked and served... and damn pissed off when i offered to build a fire again and yet totally kena bitched for making the place so warm and ashy? like WTH???? i'm building a fire you know? fire? its hot? use ur brains!!!

stayed over.... had alot of drama at the pool ..haha... pam angst and cindy with the implants at the wrong places gossips.... trying to swim and not getting caught by the guard.... cloud-watching-and-making-shapes-out-of-it .... star gazing with resident asstronomist penguin .....

took like a 2 hour nap... woke up.... had alittle diarrhoea... then went to the swimming pool ... phoe's merman and mer-maria school vs the duGONG school.... haha..... and the bay watch moments..... then i continued on the swim and float (I can't float for nuts anymore!!! i don't know why?????????????????) damn weird..... i can still swim.... but if i just wanna float... its really tough... damn weird la....

then had mac breakfast.... then kitty came after that with tiong bahru chwee kueh and extremely nice duck rice... although i think they should have better rice rather than just white rice.... really nice meal... and not forgetting weibin's old chang kee... hmm... why he always buy old chang kee ah? haha.....

then supposedly watch flushed away... i was flushed away into my dream land.... and by the time i woke up... it was about 5 already....

kitty and mimi left.... played wench cards... haha... damn stoned... oh .... we played bridge the night before with esther, penguin and weida... really weird combi... but guess wd is fine as long as he doesn't sing... muahahaha......

had extremely delicious magnolia 'gelato' ... damn nice manz... i was so surprised that magnolia actually had such products... their diary products are damn nice already..... the gelato just made it better.....

leo brought his video collection... watched scary movie 4.... funny and lame.... phoe and gie left.... then they order kfc.... switched on Babel.... quite a weird show... didn't manage to catch the whole show, had to catch the shuttle bus and come back home and sleep so i can do my work tomorrow...

gotto go.... ciaoz....

2007-04-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

Alright ... I've decided to give myself one month to lose as much weight as I can ... starting as of today 1st april, althought now is the 2nd already...

Current weight: 78kg as on my 20year old weighing scale.

I did yoga today and ate bibimbab which is mainly veges.... so well... at least not so bad, but had iced chocolate and blueberry cheesecake and roti prata and mee goreng... muahah...

I'm so .... NOT .... going to fail my test.... haha.... i will try my best to stick to my regime... now now... dun try to tempt me... or i'll kill you....

Snyo concert was a blast.... to me at least la... haha.... no fatal errors, ravel solo was good,given performance situation... i didnt freak out as usual.... i was all out to get it right.... and it was good i reckon... haha....

i'm starting to so loving my life....

I love me!!!

2007-03-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

alright.... its sunday.... viva verdi gone.... it was one of my most enjoyable concerts i've ever played..... for the fact that i dun have much parts to play and i get to listen to nancy sing.... woots.... damn nice... the diva... although i agree with others that her high notes are not as good as before... but nancy is the best sop i've heard in my life la.....

weixiang did an extremely great job with all the solos!!!! we done weixiang !!!! we didn't throw lao shi's face...hahahaha....

my lips are hurting with the non-stop blowing manz..... that sounds super wrong... but yah.... my lips are tearing.... and there was once where my reed had blood stains.... i need lip balm!!!!

haiz.... another week gone.... i'm so dead la... snyo concert on thursday..... deadline for analysis assignment on thursday.... got to rush my super overdue history assignment by thursday.... 29th of March 2007 is cursed!!! its worse than friday the 13th....

on the 13th of april(friday the 13th)... i've been scheduled to conduct 15mins of rehearsal in nieband... how cool is that ???? (serious eye-rolling) ..... i'm so gonna be thrashed by the members for the fact that i've only been present for rehearsals that very often *tries hard to keep my eyes stop rolling* ... muahaha

alright... i need to do my As.... assignments and analysis... ciao

2007-03-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

Ok 23rd of march Viva Verdi concert... super stressful concert... not really that stressful for me... but for wx rather....

today, the 22nd of march... is a day filled with lots of things....i work up at 6.30am after ust having 3 hours of sleep... feeling absolutely fresh.... reach school at 8 am , the canteen was almost dead with just afew pple... did some analysis... bought my usual orange apple juice... and shortly nasi lemak, which is about the only things i order every single time .... haha....

had a very uneventful class... with discussions on absolutely nothing which can be improved on... like how syf should have marks given and not just comments and the respective colours... although its not a COMPETITION (or what eom claims) ... therefore marks should not be given... however... i actually doubt that the adjudicators have a score sheet for every single school... its just a whole lot of rubbish on the criterias of the judging...

left nie at 11... supposed to watch piggie's recital... but had to rush home to get the krommer duet for lao shi to passed to jiayi.... spent 21 bucks on cabfare home.... barely home for 5 minutes... i took the score and took a cab to nafa.... cab fare was 10 bucks... and i only managed to catch the last few bars of the 1st ligeti etude and the whole of the 2nd etude... you could have used up all ur energy for the last one la... and break ur arms like u wanted to... muahaha....

then went to watch jeremiah's recital... it was good... haha... then went to have lunch... supposed to rehearsed kitty's piece... but she was like nowhere to be found....so ate at isle with alan and ali... then rushed back for a short rehearsal of where's the cuckoo(points to jerry) ...haha...

wah... kitty's recital ... even better... loved her The Ospreys and the william shakespeare inspired thingy... loved the mixture of the voices... damn nice.... so cool that u can manipulate ur own voice with technology... after the recital.... oh wait... jerry went to shui lin-you-you... muahaha... ..........mnuahahahahahhahaha............................. damn funny...

after the recital... took a cab to cedar.... which cost 7 bucks i think..... cedar was extremely tiring and disappointing today.... the clarinets were making alot of progress... then their seniors came in... and somehow affected the overall learning attitude.... saxes , brenda is fantastic sounding.... the other two just need to remember the embouchure.... if not i'll draw circles on ur cheeks.... tpts absolutely wasted their time... the hopeless seniors never seem to teach them anything.... the sec ones are great players.... be a proper guide to them... dun mislead them.... stupid chao ah lian attitude....

tubas are a dilemma.... raha can only play high notes... jolyn can only play low notes... haha.... euphos.... zayanah has an amazing sound on the low Bb, so does krittika and yushu.... but as soon as C and D is concern... no proper sound whatsoever.... how? how ? how?

Hojung is disappointing... primary school player... very complacent.... shujing is absolutely a pain to teach with their taitai attitude... i just want to be frank here.... tran is sounding good on the oboe.... but the senior is wasting toomuch time on correcting her intonation... she needs to get used to playing the oboe first? weird.....

the horns.... laughing all the way.... never shows any signs of sanity....

jemima and prisicilla needs to apply more 'strike' ... thats all... and use more wrist then arm.... yea....

after cedar.... took a cab to esplanade for tpo rehearsal... which cost 10bucks plus.... yes... in one day ... i took 4 trips on cab... escalating to 48-50 bucks.... thats alot manz.... damn... my expenditure these days are absurd.... i dun spend on anything except food and travelling.... damn....

tpo was extremely stressful...it started out really smoothly... but towards the end... everything was going wrong... poor wx.... got said by maestro lim.... poor thing... sorry wx!.... its not the winds that are rushing... we are merely following the other louder sections..... oh well... hopefully its going to be a good concert....

its 2.01am now... need to wake up at 7+ to rehearse my piece for piggie's crescentimum day... muahaha.....ciao.....

2007-03-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

just reached home after tpo rehearsal... phew... managed to scrape through... except not playing one more bar of the low e.... and got caught... haha.... kudos to weixiang for doing such a great job on all the solos!!!!

went to page turn today.... alan did a great job... although it wasn't his best performance we've seen.... but very good la!!!! mesmerised the whole recital... beat that !!! love his horn sound.... so nice.... like trombone.... MUAHahhaa......

page turn for someone else too.... well... quite astonished by the fact u could practise so much and screw up so many things although the playing was near perfect.... it sounds weird... but its true... i think only those who were there will understand....

recorded kitty's Where's the cuckoo(points to jeremiah) haha.... very nice piece... but bad day for recording... too many things happening outside the studio... haha... 听远处寺塔的钟声 ... muahah....

then went ps... with piggie... ate kfc.... quite happy but freaking sinful.... love the chicken and the cheese fries.... then penguin came.... then watch the messengers with penguin.... i must say... the show isn't as scary as you think it might be.... really really slow moving movie... little or no development of plot at all.... but really nice field of sunflowers... haha....

a MUST-NOT watch movie... unless u have lots of money and time to spare.... haha....

yea... thats about it... my mundane tuesday... ciaoz

2007-03-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

alright.... tristan prettyman is so pretty...... and her stage presence is very good...... really like how pop artist just own the stage like that.... really amazing.... oh well...classical performers dun have to address the audience... so i guess its quite different....

yea.... got her autograph and i was first in line...took pic with her... but self shot skills damn lousy after 1 month of not taking pics...muiahaha... so the pic sucks.... but she's still damn pretty.....

yo today was really bad....alot of intonation and wrong entries...and my ravel solo is such a disgrace la....

damn...total disgrace....

i need lots and lots of practise..... damn... concert's in 5 days time... can scrape through anot? die....

no more mosaic concerts for me.... but i have their cds... haha....

2007-03-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

extremely busy week..... extremely tired by now.... but i'm loving it.... u'll reap the rewards later... oh well... really enjoyed teaching theory to the fairfield sec 1s .... it make me seem like a classroom teacher teaching in a classroom to about 20 kids... hhaa....

oh well...

busy week.... recordings.... teachings.... rehearsals.... travelling from place to place.... really busy....

and it already shows me hints of what my life is gonna be like after another 2 years....

am i up for it?

Nerina Pallot rocks!!!!!!!! absolutely stunning vocals....

hope she gets to hold a full length concert soon.....

2007-03-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

just finished watching death note, bought the vcd.... i somehow regretted buying this cheapo version... but well.... aiyah... i'll explain.... thinking that it was a rip off... i decided to buy because the packaging itself looked decently fine....

then when i switched on.... what the hell? it has both jap and mandarin both simultaneously happening at the same time... then after awhile... only mandarin... JAPANESE & MANDARIN VERSION it says on the back cover.... ok... tried to switch the language and stuff... but to no avail... alright fine.... i'll stick to the mandarin then...

thing is... i'm a subtitle person.... dialogue does not match subtitle, grammar, sentence structure , everything doesn't match... fine then... will just listen.... then its ok already... HA !

today, wen yi (violist in snyo) completely made my day... shan't talk much about it ..... (if not alan will say "see... i told you you would write it in your blog" ...) haha... ask me if u wanna know why....

Ravel... argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...... its inhumanly possible.... or humanly impossible ... damn tough la!!!! arrrgggghhhhhhh and having such a sensitive player beside me doesn't help much.... dunch caount ...dunch pleh ihn teeoon .... vad chiu van me tu doo?

went for ashtanga yoga.... fwah kaoz.... its extremely similar to ashtanga led... just that its slower... hold postures for eternity.... damn tiring... but really cool class... every single one in the class must be regulars.... i could catch up or actually already know the postures coz its similar to the led class... but i tell u.... the people are like so flexible la!!! ... try standing up ... use ur hand to hold ur toes in front of you with out stretched legs.... everyone can do it except me!!!! haha....

damn.... i need to go more often.... more motivation... haha.... ciaoz....

2007-03-10T03:32:00.000+08:00

Little miss sunshine is a must watch manz.... damn hilarious.... deal with certain issues too... damn funny..... i just finished watching it at this ungodly hour... alright... need to sleep... ciao

2007-03-10T01:25:00.000+08:00

wah... u might be wondering how come i've been blogging almost everyday now... aiyah.... i always like that one.... after awhile... this blog will hang for damn long again...haha...

just came back... ok not just... but came back from Duke Ellington orchestra concert , opening concert as part of the 9 days of mosaic music festival at the esplanade... this year's line up is absolutely Atrocious... because they want you to go for almost every other concert... argh... and i've spend quite a sum on the tix for several concerts....

but its worth it... broadening my OH so small knowledge of other genres of music... and also for me to get a break from all the lousy music that i have to deal with... aaaaahahaha...

the concert was rather disappointing at the start... took alittle while for the orchestra and audience to warm up... and soon it was super high.... never seen such virtuosic playing from trumpets, saxes and double bass before... the saxes... fwah....... super fingers.... and i must say... you've really got to know all ur scales man, to play jazz.... the improv like no body's business....

and damn poor thing to be a sax player in the 'jazz band' ... because u have to double/triple on clarinet and flute... and the trumpets have like free high notes ..... if my 'completely-off-perfect-pitch' doesn't fail me... the trumpets can reach like the 2nd C above the freaking staff.... like oh my god... i never thought it was possible to hear it once in my life live ... but i was like..... goosebumps all over.... and the tenor sax 'duel-duet' haha...damn cool la... trying to out-run, out-range and out-volume each other... can see the musicians really enjoy awhole lot manz.....

Bryon Stripling and Freda Payne were guests in the concert.... bryon stripling played solo trumpet and singing as well.... i must say.... its damn tough to play jazz... absolutely tough i tell you.... if u thought classical music was tough... wait till u play jazz.... i know i know.... classical music is tough in making 'complicated music' sound simple... but jazz is.... sounds damn complicated and it is very complicated to play..... oh well... there will be a never ending debate... so .... all music is tough in their own aspects.... FINE.

Its is extremely fun and nice to watch Freda Payne perform... her small actions and her really cool retro dance steps.... really fun to watch i'll say... and there was a point in time during the concert that these two couples walked out of their seats to the side and started dancing... i think the orchestra happen to be playing one of their dance routine's music.... coz both couples were in sync and not just weirdos coming out to dance.... it was really nice to drift off from the orchestra and just watch them dance....

but soon .... one esplanade staff came and chased them back to their respective seats.... sad.... i swear most pple from my angle were watching them instead... haha....

after the concert...i was so fresh... and hungry.... didnt go to anywhere to eat... haha.... it was so damn crowded everywhere... i had to take a train to raffles place and take back the eastwest line.... coz if i waited at cityhall... i would have to at least wait for the 3rd train... so yah.... and damn crowded too.....

oh .... after concert... went to hmv.... was in therapy mode... so bought afew cds and vcds... haha.... gtg.... ciaoz.....

2007-03-09T10:50:00.000+08:00

alright.... its 11 am... and i'm half awake...but anyway.... aiyah.....

i've come to conclude.... i rather be dumb and hardworking.... then smart and taking every single god damned thing for granted because i'm smart and i expect things to be done within a short span of time because its only fair coz i'm only smart and thats the way things work...

Nah ah..... thats not gonna work!!!

oh well.... being smart doesn't make u capable of attaining musical excellence immediately, if you're so smart... you would be able to play naturally already.... no added pressure or stress .... period.

2007-03-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

taught today.... i must say.... the children these days are getting more matured.... but also can be even more immatured... damn irritating.... taught until rather late... then went for yoga...

think i still have some left in me... thought after 2 weeks of not doing yoga... i'm do dead... alright... i was dead tired... but i guess i wasn't as inflexible as the others in the class... although his english was alittle weird... i understood the terms(in indian/tamil/whatever) and just naturally went into position... haha... damn fun....

ate alot.... read somewhere that its better to eat frequent meals(healthy ones of course, not snacking) ... well.... i seem to feel better anyway.... whatever la....

i so have so much to catch up....

2007-03-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

Sianz ... tooo many things popping out all of a sudden.... damn lazy to do anything... As usual... whats new some may say... right alan? haha...

oh well... just had analysis test on monday.... rather super confident of this paper.... like it all seems so weird and wrong.... i always had this feeling for harmony tests... but this time its better... muahaha..... the harmony test feeling was never right .....

oh well.... still contemplating if i should do my presentation with them or alone... if i do alone...i'll be able to do a topic i like and read like siao over the next few weeks.... or i can be in the same group as them and have loads off my back ... but thinking of the group... there might be tonnes of things for me to do too... considering the fact that erm.... it'll stop here.... haha.... end of story ...

i'm starting to dread coaching the not so bright students.... its not the problem with them being dumb or stupid... but its the attitude.... music is not for the 'unintellectual' ... serious... i feel u either need to be bright.... or u seriously have to be extremely hardworking... well... i'm not bright... haha....i know i know... but i was extremely hardworking.................................. AT THE START !!!!!! ...... fine fine.......i'm starting to be talking to myself all of a sudden....

still gonna try eventhough its march already...1 month can do serious work one lor.... bloody iaht pple...come here waste our resources.... go back better.... fanthom of the openbra... haha....

ciaoz....

2007-02-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

Since i'm sick and don't feel like doing work.... i shall blog ...

reunion lunch

Cny Lunch by the master chef

Hainanese chilli

walnut cake and teh (made with love!)

This shelf has been there before i was born, and it looks super new still...

My childhood toy at my ahma's house (bought by my ah gong[who's dead now], theres only that many colours and its as old as me!)

my ah po and I ...

oh well... not much blogging anyway... just posting of pics... ciaoz... need to rest...

2007-02-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

Logic vs common sense

sincere question vs to-create-a-conversation-question

stupidity vs pure-ignorance

happy lunar new year to all ...

how messed up can my life get?

oh well ...

Kyrie eleison.

2007-02-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

Well... i've been busy teaching these days, just got posted to my 'related-alma-mater' , PingYi sec... well... extremely honoured to be able to take them for their first indoor syf... can see alot of enthusiasm in them and definitely changes right from the first minute till the 5th hour.... tremendous improvement... if only there was more time....

teaching/tutoring some other schools as well.... some very enthu... some not so... but i'll still be just as enthu just for enthu's sake and trying to get them to be more enthu....

haha....

oh well....life's been getting pretty busy.... have my analysis to do.... and damn... history to rush by thursday..... already passed the deadline for damn long... die .....

got to run... long day....

2007-01-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

Silence is the most powerful tool ... and I've learnt that ... extremely powerful ... it'll send a sharp sword into the heart ...

2007-01-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

I feel so fucking cheap ...

I feel like I am not given recognition ...

I feel like I am being put down because I'm better ...

I feel like shit ...

YKWho ... Bloody HELL !!!!!!

2007-01-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

alright ... i'm so totally screwed ... have to analyse a 3 movement band piece by monday ... complete a 2000 word summary .... do some paper on the band history in singapore and somemore that i'm not sure of... thanks Daniel yiau for making your life so stressful and miserable ... thank you ....

i'm so screwed manz....

i'm so seriously screwed ....

die die die ...

out-break ...

die die die die die ...

seriously screwed ....

i will pull through !!!!!!!!

till then ...

i'm screwed ...

2007-01-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

Countdown to new year's at Global Sounds was very fulfilling , finally went , had lots to drink and eat ... haha ... took lots of random shots at things and stuff ... will be back there real soon ...

don't the nasi lemak look appetising? (mmmm .... wherenice)

2007-01-03T13:44:00.000+08:00

Alittle late update ... last year's update ... well ... we finally went for the long awaited Voggies food tour which was held on the 28.12.2006 ... all went rather well , except not everyone was there , jeremy had to leave halfway , clarence had his extreme lag , kevin had to send his baby for repairs ... i forgot to take pics of our dinner and the cakes of the dessert though... sorry ah ... paiseh... muahaha ... THOU SHALL NOT HAVE A FOOD TOUR FOR ANOTHER FEW MONTHS - - - Danielyiau 1 : 14 woohoo... muahahha ... jeremiah must be laughing by now ..

well .... the photos not in chronological order though...lazy la... ciaoz

2006-12-22T01:05:00.000+08:00

ooh..................... freaking full now.................. had like alot to eat today ..... went to menotti's after the gtcic ... page turning is indeed a specialised thing ... can tell ... muahahha ....

the sofiato and whatever that ying4qi ordered was damn nice .... oh ... dun forget the fantastic vanilla bourbon and rum raisin ice cream.....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........ damn freaking nice sia..............

food food food...... woooohooooooooooo ........... puberty stage 4.3 ........ muahahahhaha..........

eating alot these days...... not sure why ........

yoga!!!

2006-12-20T02:41:00.000+08:00

2.41am ... here i am ... blogging ... extremely nice weather , raining in fact ... i love the rain ... i have no idea why ... but its just so comfortable hearing the rain landing on the earth ... roads and pavements rather... the concrete jungle...

it would be better if there were strong winds.... then u can even hear the rustle of leaves and can even see the trees dancing frantically...MUAhaha....

i hate pink... pink should remain on pigs... coz they look the best in pink !!! ooh.... i love pink piglets ... damn cute ...

whole body aching ... argh... haven't been doing yoga for so long ... finally went... exerted and push myself... now i'm aching all over ... oh well...i love the rain !!!

went for steamboat dinner with the pw clars(with some missing members) and adrian cheong ... coz xiao en is leaving for china (for god knows how long) ... i miss him already !!!!!!!!!!!! my slacking-gossip-3rd-chair-partner ... so sad that he has to leave for work commitments... haiz... so sad ....gonna miss him so much.... but happy also.... that he'll get a better job .... haiz.... i'm sure he's gonna miss us more lor....MUAHahahhahaha

went for kings' college choir concert .... haiz... damn disappointing ... i expected more out of them ... but i was surprised by many other things as well ....

my mum made chicken pie and beef pie... quite surprised with the quality actually...just minus the thick crust....its nice la.... just that the crust very gelat...

gonna carol again... hopefully it'll be better ... this month is the merry month of splurging... bought a $60 pair of sandal ... a $69 pair of shoes ... want to buy shirts and pants soon... spending/gonna spend lots of money on eating too ....

anyway.... i love black... i want to die wearing black.... ciaoz....

2006-12-03T14:22:00.000+08:00

alrighty ... long time no blog ... well ... tonnes of things happened ... like really heaps manz ...

from ice creams ... to concerts ... to funerals ... wow ... amazing how MUCH things can happen within a few weeks ...

oh well ... nothing special really to blog about ... yah ...

ciao...

2006-11-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

WENG SUCKS !!!!!!! big time ... MUAHAhahhahahaha .... bitch i tell you ...

never name ur children Darius, Daniel, Benedict, Alan, Jeremiah, John, Peter, Mary-anne, Joyce, Edric, Ruth, Ew (any form of acronyms), Fred (or variants), Adrian, Angela, Audrey, Eugene, April, May, June, July, August, September (why name your children after the calendar?), Tommy, Raymond, Chris (or variants), Wendy, Terence, Ivan, Felicia, Bernard, Apple, Cindy, Vanness (or variants), Nathaniel, Kelly, Richard, Adams, Alex, Jacky, Jovan, Amanda, Lulu, FengFan, Haijie, JiaHui, Esther, Michelle, Vincent, Jamie, James, Aloysious, Sebastian, Renee, Poom, Peng, yings, su's, xiao's, siao's, choon's, leong's ... etc ... These are not personal attacks ... Don't not be offended if you fall into any of the category la ... don't worry la ... its just general feeling that We (ask me who if u wanna know more) all share ...

right? i think most actually agrees with me ... Oblivious ... stupid Ah Lan ... idiot...

Bloody hell ...

Primary school kids are damn notorious now ... but they are damn fun also ... muahaha

(ah lan and jerry say put piggie's also... but theres only one...)

Yah...

ciaoz..... MUAhahha....

2006-11-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

the kids are simply devils in disguise... they can be tamed.... but takes so much effort... but its fulfilling at the end of the day.... only when they can play... ha!

heads are gonna roll .... roll ... i tell you ...

loving my yoga.... can see myself improving at some postures.... but some postures still cannot.... damn disappointed...

2006-11-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

life only sucks because you chose to make it suck ... even if all goes wrong ... as long as you think of it in another way ... it'll be alright ... =)

always choose to make the best out of any situation ... coz ... ultimately ... its your own life !!!

u might be wondering at this point of time ... hmm ... is this the daniel yiau i know ? well ... i'm asking the same question myself ... what caused this changed huh? weird right ? is this better ? or worse?

haha ... bleah... i'm going nuts ...

oh ... i'm gonna get kicked out soon ... so what if u have a grade 8? u won't neccessarily make a good ensemble player...

oh well... go screw urself ... u 2 headed bitch ...

you too... fucker ...

think u damn good right ...

go fuck urself ...

fuck yourself ...

feel better now ... muahaha ...

hopeless fat bitch ...

moon surface bastard ...

fucker ...

ciaoz ...

2006-11-05T02:24:00.000+08:00

I know my source of angst already ...

my parents ...

they're just too fucked up ...

I can't handle it anymore ...

Suicide isn't one of my options ...

not gonna die because of them ...

WHATEVER FOR ???

suffer your own consequences ...

I can't be bothered ...

I know I have a future thats mine and I'm all out to pursue it ...

nothing's gonna stop me ...

sacrifices that i have to make ...

ciaoz people ...

Don't worry about me ...

the angst has just been released ...

feel so much better now =)

2006-10-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

FCUK OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYTHING ALSO MUST ACT .... FCUK YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(DON't even ask me who they are)

FCUK MANz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-10-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

my eyes feel like they're burning ... after all that crying at the service... the supposed 'pastor' totally sucked... he was so insensitive to the whole event, dwelling more about how his dad died and some 3 of 10 life scoring shit that no one ever understood... he is such a complete turn off to the whole service... everything should have just been left to that... it would be enough... at least to me...

its so sad to discover that someone actually died on their birthdate , it brings a whole new meaning of life after death ...

24.10.1990 - 24.10.2006

In Memorium ...

you have returned home ...

take lots of care Danil ...

remember to visit us in our dreams ...

we love you and we'll really miss you alot ...

2006-10-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

to you Danil ... where ever God has taken you to ...

You have indeed shown us that this world is indeed broken ,
and life is extremely fragile ...
though we never had lots of chances to really know you ,
but your music speaks lots , even without words.
though the world has yet to see what wonders you can do ,
I'm sure that you have gone to a much better place ,
and they've been waiting for you to perform ,
be sure we won't take it easy ,
but you have to go, and you don't have a choice.
I don't do justice to you from the way i put it ,
I'm simply lost for words ,
no words can describe the sense of feeling ,
the shock , the trauma , nothing-ness ,
the world once again loses another talent ,
we'll miss you so much ...
rest well Danil ...
we'll see you soon ...

In Memorium ...

2006-10-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

alright.... these few days have been very fulfilling.... getting to catch up with friends... going out... indulging in food like theres no tomorrow....kboxing.... movie-ing... going out.... walking around.... talking.... doing some things.... blah blah blah.... feeling happier.... muahaha.... going out.... teaching... doing certain things.... talking.... watching movies.... eating.... walking.... going out.... teaching .... doing certain things.... going out... seeing them.... seeing him.... seeing her.... going out.... eating..... watching movies.... feeling happier... composing.... seeing him..... walking around.... seeing her.... eating...... seeing them.... talking..... watching the movies.... why do i keep spelling movies as moives ? .... eating.... loving every moment of my life..... rantings..... talking.... eating.... watching movies..... eating..... eating.... teaching .... screaming..... shouting.... talking.... preaching..... eating.... watching movies......eating..... indulging in everything i do..... teaching.... preaching..... loving..... every moment..... sianz...... ciaoz

2006-10-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

ok... just came home from an absolutely fulfilling rehearsal with john boyd... besides having an outrageously fast tempo for festive and a big contrast of extreme slow with traumermusik... learnt afew things from him so far already.... shan't share with everyone... must make me better than all of you... muahaha.... whatever....

supper with ronny lifeng and aaron was quite fun.... funny pple.... weird convos..... weird things we do to scare the pple beside us ( at least thats what i noticed ) .... poor ronny with his faulty bike... haha... can't imagine anyone who would still dare to drive such a means of transportation... haha....

worked on my short pieces... hmm... seems on the way... materials are better now.... developments are getting easier... and my voice is somewhat there already.... hopefully it'll be acceptable ... oh well... i'm not there to please them.... its for myself and selected pple...haha...

oh well..... i need to sleep soon....or i'll be dozing off later in class again... hahah... and get caught in the act.... coz theres just too many pple in class... if u know what i mean...muahaha....

ciaoz.... hope to go cycling and more yoga !!!! feel so damn lazy..... and i'm growing fat!!!

2006-10-15T01:32:00.000+08:00

so sad.... did this test

You Are 76% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

i thought i would be 100% ... but because there were options like " you've shot a gun and liked it " ... erm...i would love to have a gun to shoot at someone though... haha

oh well... the past few days have been fun ... doing absolutely relaxing stuff.... damn cool.... oh well...i'm starting to love life so much more... but also starting to like to fuck life around more too... coz theres simply not enough time... u need to get the best of both worlds... hahah... muahahah.... if only i ruled the world.... all of u must be thinking like no way..... we'll all die... well... i won't be that bad la.... if all of u die... there won't be any fun at all... won't it? hahah...

i really really want to teach more schools...expose myself to absolutely the more students as i can.... teaching many schools really enriches ur life... first of all u see how much the students have changed since our own time... haha....

yea.... gonna enjoy my weekend.... ciaoz....

2006-10-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

BEFORE READING : READ AT YOUR FUCKING OWN RISK

DAMN YOU LA !!!!!!!! talk big only.... like you freaking good like that??????

FUCK YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NAH BEI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHEE BYE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO SCREW YOURSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKING FUCKED UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHEEEEEEEEEE BYEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHeers

2006-10-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

有些人真的有超严重的老人痴呆症!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! na xie hui du de.... ni men jui hao shi bie bang na xie bu hui du de ..... fo ze ... hou guo hui bu kan she xiang !!!!!!!!

wei she mo zhen tian dou xu yao kan ni de chou lian se...... ni yi wei zhi ji hen liao bu qi ma... aarrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-09-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

alright...

after my flu.... i caught another dumb sickness ...

food poisoning... gastric flu.... and fever...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! how suay can i get ???must be some idiots cursing me...

argh.... stomach making damn loud wierd noises... not because i'm hungry.... coz of the flu.... haha... doc said its like a normal flu... just that its at the stomach.. muahaha... damn funny....

haha.....

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

= )

Ciaoz....

2006-09-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

alright.... i'm freaking messed up.... feeling so sick now.... nose damn pain.... body feel damn 'gao wuay' ... wah piang....damn damn gao wuay.... dunno wanna go to school tmr or not....haiz.... it will be worth going.... maybe i will go la.... then just spread my virus....since i'm such a kind person... must share... muahah....

had philwinds concert last night.... i guess it was ok.... though there were some slips... haha... oh well.... had fun la... but damn sian....coz of the flu... then today like abit fever.... slept alot.... sian....

ciaoz...

2006-09-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

FUCKING PISSED OFF !!!

2006-09-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

Disappointed ...

utterly disappointed ...

oh well ...

thats the only word i can use now ...

extremely disappointed ...

disappointed ...

2006-09-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

Hot yoga by Pallavi is damn fun and rewarding.... hot yoga by vikram is super tiring and shiong...

Adeline's Ashtanga led is extremely shiong.... stanley's ashtanga led is extremely tough in the sense of maintaining the postures.... adeline is a nice lady.... stanley is a nice man... muahaha.... i'm nuts....

jittu is an extremely sarcastic person....

adi is a nice yoga master.... always telling u what the posture is all about and what it helps....

yogi is damn freaking funny.... but his classes are all damn shiong.... even for yoga therapy....

shraddha was the first yoga master that i really like.... coz she was very nice basically...muahaha...

Jo is a freaking sweet and nice yoga master la!!!! she was so patient..... and damn nice la....

ramesh's combat class is too tough... haha....

issey's combat is damn fun but attract too many 'aunties'

chandra (hmm...not sure if i mixed up ramesh and chandra) ...his classes is damn freaking freaking tough la.....

jake was a fun yoga master...but aliitle bad as an example...coz ....some postures weren't that good.... hhaa....

suresh is damn fun.... but classes are tough too....

i'm going nuts over yoga la.... everytime i finish..... damn energised and high...muahaha.... haha...

had rehearsal just now...fwahlao.... the concert's like in not many hours time.... and still like so unprepared la.... haiz... dunno la....

life's been quite fulfilling.....

taught a girls' school sec 1 clars..... would say 4 pple all have very nice aspirations... vet... surgeon... psychologist and a forensic investigator.... haha.... all the tv they watch.... haha....oh well...have been fulfilling coz u(i rather) have to find 'innovative' ways to teach them on the spot... like certain concepts....

haha... my different set of rules for playing... haha... damn funny la....

oh well... its rewarding to see them being able to play.... oh well.... haha... oh well....

haha...oh well... some things very difficult to say out.... but its damn rewarding la....

teaching is for me? or performing? i like both.... but is it possible to strike a balance?

oh well.............

ciao.....

2006-09-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

I Love ...

If only ...

Why?

How?

When?

Where?

Ahhhh ...

Argh ...

Black ...

Him ...

Her ...

You ...

Me ...

Ha ha ha ...

Ciaoz ...

2006-09-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK !!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU !!!!!! DO ALSO SCOLD... DON'T DO ALSO SCOLD.... DO ALSO SAY... DON'T DO ALSO SAY.... NEVER DO ANYTHING ALSO SAY !!!!! DO ALSO SAY !!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!! ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU !!!! !!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

alright.... been awhile since i've blogged...been rather busy these days(yea right Daniel...)

well...i've been busy with composing, complete my "Quartet no. 1" entitled 'Angsty' and dedicated to my dearest ex-classmate, liong kit yeng... MUAhaha... quoted a few bars(2 rather) in my piece, couldn't resist the temptation la... haha... thanks kitty...hope u dun mind... (since i already dedicated the piece to you lor...)

well.... think my character changed alittle... not sure for the better or worse la... only time will tell... seems like my thinking has changed too ... from the way i think of things (DUH!) ... and from the way i deal with pple(dun include piggie and phoenix and gang... HA! [seperate issues altogether]) ... and the way i respond too ...quite interesting... quite scary in fact...

well....had afew performances so far.... amadeus... nafa chamber choir... hmm...watched afew concerts... the syc ensemble singers ( fantastic concert besides the cheesy 2nd half of 'closed harmony' arrangements) hmmm.... actually thats the only performance i remember watching... haha....

hopefully i'll be teaching 'full time' from next week onwards.... need to have more 'mental-workout' ... now its just 'mentally-draining-activities' from all the rehearsals and performances.... which is good also la... but need to think more.... haha... blkah... stop laughing at me....

ok.... i'mgetting bored... probably thats why i've been 'blogging so much lately' ... haha...

ciao....

2006-08-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

just came back from practises.... literally.... snyo... first thing came in... that thing was sitting my seat... 2ndly... that thing asked if it should be playing my part coz it was "... too high for you ..."

Crap...

glad My Eb playing is actually getting better... for slow passages at least ... haha....

JJ has a serious attitude problem la... So does mr Student conductor... oh well... who cares anyway... since i'm not gaining any respect... go screw urself then....

not like i really care...

D really has a serious tempo issue.... don't try to outrun anyone coz the strings can definitely run faster... oh well... not that anyone bothers to tell him... i do... but does he even process it?

i hope i'm getting my tuition soon... my playing is getting worse.... so bad i tell u... i wanna stop playing.... some thing should be happy if i ever did... BUT NO !!!! i will play till i die... haha...

need to buck up i supposed....

reach sscc... immediately had to sing... no time to warm up... probably thats why i got tired after the first few songs... haiz.... but seems like my voice is changing... not sure for the better or worse leh... HAhha....

haiz.... had a little sing-along-session at coffee club just now... after dinner at beer garden... its amazing how much better (wouldn't say good) we sound singing so so so much softer... the tone is much more balanced and alittle more unified... haha....

fun la... then sang on jeremiah's van also... haha... damn funny la...

oh well... home....

need to buck up....

Being Along and Feeling Lonely are two completely different issues altogether ....

ciao...

2006-08-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

Wanting to be Alone and Feeling Lonely are two seperate and completely different issues altogether.

Have been a rather 'relaxed week' due to the National Day holidays, but oh well... the national day parade show was really disappointing... the show segment was merely half an hour and the parade took up so much time... oh well...

went to watch the SIngapore team of the fireworks display at esplanade.... quite disappointing as well... the new year's one was certainly much better.... oh well...

had a performance at vch with 2 other choirs, would say their sound is certainly much better than us... they are almost like gross's band... HA ... after awhile... it just gets boring la... versatility should always be the ideal quality of a musical ensemble...

alright... there are at least 2 extremely irritating pple i see everyweek... either they're trying to make everyone look stupid... think they are very smart ... trying to steal methods from others ... purely just naive of how others actually think about their actions ... or all of the above....

going to bathe and go to SNYO and amadeus... hopefully can catch the fireworks display from sscc.... haiz.... France should be good.... caught the New C0uwiaqekr(dunno how to spell la) country's display on the jammed bus last night after the performance... freaking hell... the cars just happily stopped to catch it... like WTF !!!! but it was certainly better than the singapore's show... except for the screaming goblins which they lacked.... hahahahhaha

then we went to Indulgz.... for a super fantastic meal .... had the butterfish and chives... FAAAAAANNNNNNNNTAAAAASSSSSTIC !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then we went to the Super ATAS place... that gothic building along beach road.... Divine they call it.... can't imagine they spend 200 Million dollars~~~~~~~~~ just on that lobby-bar itself... Woah.... but it sure was worth it... the amount of money and everything else spent just for Aesthetical reasons....

alright..... ciao....

Wanting to be Alone and Feeling Lonely are two seperate and completely different issues altogether. -- Daniel Yiau

2006-08-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

Stupid Cindy... drag me to the fireworks display... then make me bring u to the hk cafe... and missed my dinner at home... and make me think of next year's big event... eeeediot man.....

oh well.... really had alot of fun though... all the screaming fireworks which resembles goblins flying everywhere....

weird aunty with tissue in her pocket.... small wanton.... small carrot cake.... super oily guo tie... very 'coffee-lised' yuan yang... and the funny crowd who sat at the weirdest places to see the fireworks... haha

and the genki sushi guy that we see again!!! who happens to stop at ur stop.... so sweeeeet.....

oh ... went cycling in the morning with doctor, thampui and aunty.... haha... very fun .... didn't fall!!!! finally !!! broke the curse....

very full day i would say... feasting like nobody's business... haha...

oh well... happy national day all!!!

really miss....

2006-08-06T04:16:00.000+08:00

haiz... been thinking...

what will happen 5 years down this road... don't even talk about 10 years...

what will happen???

i am really worried... will i be a disgrace and a laughing stock to myself?

or will i be able to be proud of myself?

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh................

i hate this feeling.....

have been blogging in short sentences lately....

weird......

oh well.......

met up with jon..... seems like we all didn't change much....

really enjoyed the company....

thanks jon !!!!

oh well....

had a drink myself....

was good....

not the drink though.....

oh well....

ciao...

2006-08-05T12:23:00.000+08:00

Time Heals ...

no matter what ...

Just give it some time ...

and things will change ...

its so interesting to see what people turn into in such a short span of time ...

really intriguing ...

what are things turning this way ???

is this a sign ???

should i tell ???

should i say ???

should i ???

I'll let time help me heal me ... ahah

maybe it won't be healing ...

but blocking out rather ...

and be oblivious to the change ...

oh well ...

I'm not so much suicidal anymore =)

haha... thats a good thing... have many things to do first...

oh well...

i must i must ....

ciao ....

2006-07-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

ok ... i feel better... eventhough i will never say this word in real life... my online persona will be able to do this...

I FREAKING HATE EVILO NAK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAKING HATE HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have no idea why she refuses to even acknowledge my existence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have not done anything wrong at all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... and i do not cut and paste.... every one is typed out ... in case you're wondering

my surges for suicide is starting to scare me.... theres always the initial hesitation.... but its starting to wear off.... will it take complete control of me one day? I really do not know...

am i having a split persona ?

what's happening to me?

fear is starting to lose its character so to speak.... and it scares me....

Did i mention that I HATE EVILO NAK ????????

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

had dnabein on friday... first thing i sat down.... i was already challenge by some fucked up person.... hello? show some bloody freaking respect will you? in case u dun understand that.... so screw urself... or get ur freaking boyfriend to do it....

i have absolutely no respect for that few pple... and the culture... there is no culture to begin with... why don't u just take notes and make better music? damn freaking atttitude....

on a lighter note... had a performance at botanic gardens... would say its an extremely fun performance... took picture with adrian pang and cai lilian... haha.... wanted to take pic with jacintha abishege........ but she busy doing her hair... sian la... nvm then.....

went with jovan and kelvin to meet jovan's friends.... dun wanna talk abt it.... had nothing to do the whole damn fucking sunday evening... jovan ... in case u're reading.... thanks alot for being such a nice friend... but i dun think i can live with so much happenings within such a short phase of time and pple actually dun care abt it... its really difficult...

Kelvin is such a plastic person la....haiz... so sad lor... kelvin ah.... aiyoh... zuo ren... yao zuo hao ren...ye yao zuo hao ren zuo dao di.... you already know me ... ur lowest standard should be me... haha... sadly....

alright.... I HATE EVILO NAK !!!!!!!!!

2006-07-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

alright... i'm broke now.... bought some children foundation ticket... which was like $10.... but i felt good after that... doing something nice , which i do not usually do... haha....

watched cabaret... an extremely dirty and raunchy show... the cast was extremely exciting... haha....

Mr Emcee was disappointing... though his introduction was damn cool....

Ms Yong... haiz... heard her much better before....

the ensemble pple were all damn on la... very fun la they all.... Rj rosales was the 'funnest'... haha...

the green 'ballerina-tutu' was damn funny....

the girls... wah... all damn slutty..... but cool!!!!

alright... got to dift off......

i have been taken for granted again.... as usual... and i barely know you... you dare to give me such attitude? WHAT KIND OF F-UP ATTITUDE IS THAT ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I HOPE YOU DIE SOON !!!!!!!! DIE !!!!!!!!!! DIE !!!!!!!!!!! DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BURN IN HELL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i did charity !!! cool~~~~~~~~

2006-07-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

ok... 24/7 ...my birthday... and so i share with afew friends... shihui... weijian.... vincent tan... mrs whatever's son... and another teacher's child.... its a nice number i would say.... haha...

first day of school... haha.... it was quite a blast... well... lessons didn't officially start la.... had introductions and walk round to check out the freaking huge library... hah...

it was quite tough sitting through from 9 - 1.... considering i woke up at 6 and with me sleeping around 3am... haha... its quite amazing... thanks to dad who was 'on the way' and picked me to school.... if not i'll be a zombie for the next year or so...

had lunch with piggie... she was so sweet... made a nice collage of pics... woah... i changed alot... haha.... and the laughing bdae card... damn funny lor!!!!! so like us... laughing whole day long at basically nothing... haha.....

lunch was good....

dinner sucked....

wasted my money.....

dessert sucked too.....

the "si mud tea" SUCKS !!!!

the bolo bun sucked too....

the mango thingy was nice though...

Max is a nice person.... Nigel is a whore.... Jovan is weird....

haha... like anyone gives a damn about me....

oh well.... it's my bdae.. i won't care... like i even will?

oh well....

couldn't believe i said the word out so loudly in public.... so embarrassing....

freak....

arghh.....

ciaoz....

2006-07-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

WE WON THE TOP IN DIVISION 3 !!!!! muahaha.....

it was estatic la.... finally i am part of getting a gold with the Titans...

splitting is still inevitable right?

at least end it with a BIG BANG !!!

now we'll still have a last chance together as the Titans... during the Honor Band concert....

hopefully we won't be such a big throw face coz of the level of difficulty in the song we chose coz of the simple fact its the lowest division... haha.... and we'll be one of the bigger bands as well... wait... most of the top bands all have almost the full strength of the hall... so yah....

oh well... how fun to see the national band comp to actually bring together so many different pple together... haha... be it as guest players or as alumni for their bands.... it was really a gathering of sorts man....

V band deserved it... could not imagine how little respect they gave to other bands when they were competing... such a disgrace man... how much respect i gave to the school name.... tarnished because of some dumb smart-ass-boys.....

tj deserved it.... rj was so sour.... and showed no respect at all... how sad.... how sad pple actually turn becuase of losing.... sore losers.... if u done ur best and lost.... just accept it no matter wad... but if u didn't do ur best and yet expected to win.... tsk.... damn sad....

anyway... the marriage of figaro rocked manz.... i loved the role cherubino... it is such a resemblance to me... muahaha.... damn funny la the opera... mozart was a corny and cheeky man... haha

gtg... cheerios....

2006-07-13T01:38:00.000+08:00

Rudolph the red nose reindeer.... haiz... the past two days i've been hearing this.... but soon i will miss it.... because some of these pple who sing this to me are gonna leave .... snyo that is.... just when i was getting to know them better.... oh well....

haiz... so sad la...

Had a Blast(literall) during the snyo concert... a last for some of our most treasured players... it'll be a whole lot of changes and adjustments to be made when new(not necessarily fresh) blood comes in... oh man.... cannot imagine this period....

made many new friends and bonds during this period prior to the concert night... what a waste... if these bonds were made a long time ago .......

Aaron ... the bitch... haha....

so sad that he's leaving...

our 'walk to the bus stop' buddy...

its been a pleasure knowing you these few months!!!!

All the best for your A's!!!

"stupid Daniel" ... haha... she sounds exactly like hui En when she says it... Eh.... not sure if she's taking her A's this year... but nvm la... haha... just post the pics up... damn blur la the pic...

Charlotte!!! the girl that I "really spoke" to on the concert day itself...

sad that she has to leave too.... for A's and she's not sure if she'll come back...

All the best too!!!

She's a whole lot of fun la this girl...

Chester .... the MEdia Bassoonist with all the nonsense videos and clips to show us... haha

he's not leaving yet... but he's someone damn fun to have with during rehearsals....

Rachel... the girl who had her swab stuck in the middle of 'the gadfly suite' ...

literally scared the hell out of me when i saw what was happening in front of me during my bars rest...

haha.... she's the silent killer.... look very sweet.... but extremely lethal i tell you...

hahahah...

all the best for A's !!!

I love this pic.... like some air steward advert... MUAhhaha....

Hatim.. the future Doctor... going to Chicago to study medicine... so envious man....

only got to know him after the concert when we went to eat... so sad man...

oh well....

ALL the best Hatim!!

JJ the absolute Bitch ... finally got into main... the bassoons were always stagnant coz everyone was staying on... haha... just kidding.... the bassoons are the youngest section in the winds... but the most experienced so to speak.... hmm... how weird...

Lanabel and friend... haha(the friend looks alittle freaky in this pic though)

Lanabel is the future Maxim Vengerov or hilary hahn i tell you... she beats most of the fana(go figure!) violinists anytime ....

She's only Pri 6 !!!

You go Little Girl !!!

ALL HAIL QUEEN OF BURPS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH QUEEN OF BURPS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this woman here burps like a freak cow la.... damn powerful burper and percussionist... haha.... her special "raise leg on chair and tap tambourine stance" ... haha.... super fun woman ....

OK OK ... i need to get an anti-shake camera

Eileen or Ms Maggie Mee... the roll on bass drum... roll on sus. cymbals... roll on snare... roll on timpani for free woman... haha...

the amount of "freeness" she had to endure during the concert... HAHAHha

Muahahah

I like this pic too....

Bitch caught in the act!!! hahah....

Going to miss our ultimate Bitching partner!!!

All the best for getting into cambridge!!! i'm sure you'll get in there la....

All the best manz....

Don't forget the treat u promised when u get into cambridge!!!

Ming yan --- the girl who cries at every concert...
Aiyoh...

this girl... from Laffles JC ok !!! she seems super innocent... but she can be damn bitchy at times too( one too many in fact) ... hahah...

All the best ah.....

The Clarinet Section for the concert... Tang Lao shi had to stand in coz of all the controversies going on.... but it was fun working with everyone... although joel kept giving me attitude problems.... awww.... i won't hate you for that joel!!! ... haha...

This pic's alittle "the matrix" -- everything seems blurred except me and andris... haha..

Andris... everyone's favourite cellist in SNYO... we're so gonna miss you woMAN.... haiz.... so sad... must come back when you're free after your A's alright?

so gonna miss you !!!!! 10 LITTLE INDIAN BOYS ~~~~

Zhi Wei ~~~~ another girl that we're so going to miss.... (one of the 10 little indian boys as well.... inside joke)

Hopefully you will be back after ur O's...

We share about the same story... after the 3rd assessment ... we got up into main... and then we managed to stand up and earn something... HAHa.... so proud of her....

all the best for your O's

This post is getting damn long manz..... haha.... first time.... alot of emotions.....

IKE !!! OUR BEstest concert master.... extremely humble... we will always be behind you man.... no matter what happens....

he's everyone's concert-master-friend-mentor-bullying friend-everything.... he's just such a nice person....

those snobs should be ashamed of yourselves!!!

SNYO is so going to miss you Ike....

All the best IKE !!!

Singapore really made a bad decision .....

alright.... very late already... i need to sleep... to those i did not post ur pics.... its either you're not leaving yet, i don't have your pics, or i simply don't have time already la... need to sleep... haha.... i didn't forget you guys for sure!!!!!!!!!!! take care.....

We'll never know when our lives will cross again.... we will definitely meet somehow... in the near distant future.... so sad that some things simply have to end this way.... but thats life.... cheers to more music making .... and to life !!!

cheers.... haiz.... so many emotions going through all of us now.... Thing will never be the same again.......................................... never......................................................................

2006-07-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

damn tired.... after Hatha by chandra and Hot yoga by Ramesh.... what i felt was almost.... nothing.... couldnt feel my body anymore... haha... damn tired manz.... but can say was really an extremely big push to my threshold of pain... haha....

alright....

2006-07-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

1am + ....

Listening to music for almost 2 hours.... noticed that composers each have their own specific styles or sounds that are generally identified with them... is this a good thing?

have been composing this few days... haven't really seen much of a style that i'm really stuck in yet.... but sound wise... think its almost similar... my consonance are relatively alike and so are the dissonances ....

But is it asking too much to be different? haha ... we don't really have to be different, just make our each individual style work for us and first of all you must appreciate the style.

oh well...

later in the evening, the time has come... the judging of the SNYO composition competition. not really sure where my chances are along this judging, the piece was quite half-heartedly done due to time constraints, the two halves of the piece didnt really link... that could be used as a point of composition?

oh well...

i need to practise harder... next week is the concert... so fast! argh... the orchestra needs to feel the urgency, at least for the winds... theres no sense of being to the orchestra for many that they do not see the consequences if we do not perform well... eyes are already ready to see how well we are gonna perform...

don't forget the ears... they are definitely ready to criticise every single wrong passage... phrasing... gosh... the saxophone soli... damn worried man.... still haven't got used to the instrument....

need to breathe more... amzing how breathless i get when playing the saxophone... sadly.... i need to practise!!!!!! MORE AIR !!!!!!

oh well....

2006-07-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

Damn tired... went for Chamber rehearsal... now realised how many notes there are that are so difficult to get... well... matter of practise la... went for Combat and Gentle today... wah... Combat is damn fun la i tell u... punch like no body's business.... gentle was tough today coz of maybe the prior combat... arms are like aching now... hopefully tmr will be fine... i fell asleep during the rest period of gentle la!!! damn embarrassing... haha

went for a nice dinner with sophia and yin sher... ok la... not that nice.... but it was nice in its own way.... alittle pissed off with the place coz my order was so damn long... eventhough it should have been the first.... but nvm la... the staff were nice... alright... some were nice.... but slow... haha

What is Creativity ? Does copying others and changing bits make u creative? or better? well... not sure... i just had this thought on certain things that have been done recently... oh well... can't say i'm any better... but i wouldn't know... unless given a chance to try... haha...

oh well... hopefully to have a better session tmr.... and have some practise time... ciao

2006-07-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

alright.... a whole week of many dramas altogether... alittle too much to digest but yah... got to live with it... "life's like a box of chocolate... you never know what you're gonna get"... Unless... you know what kind of chocolates you're buying... haha....

2006-06-28T09:25:00.000+08:00

ok.... many things had been happening thus far... some which i don't wanna share... well... maybe some parts of it....

i've been exploited once again... to do a last minute 2 weeks job... a mission impossible ... considering how much work has to be done for a low cost... but once again... i'll prove them wrong... i've always been askked to clear up mess...... last minute... but this time ... way super last minute... they are smart kids... i'm sure they'll live up to it... just need to be more flexible... they cannot change their mindset and mentality straight away... weird....

Interfuzions VS les Six du singapur .... at esplanade concourse... haha... well... theres really nothing between us la.... 2 completely different schools of taught/thought... but needless to say... being put back to back will definitely create direct comparison...

oh well....

have been pigging out quite often lately...not sure why.... but doesn't seem to be gaining weight besides the face... MUAHAHaha.... how does one exercise to lose off weight at the face? hmm... always been thinking of this but never found the answer.....

haha....

ok... stood us up for german class.... aiyah... its just some mis communication la.... got to sort this out fast... my room's in a mess... schedule's in a mess... everytime i ask how? He bloody hell just wanna drive off and avoid the question... how am i supposed to work like that? i'll liason with the teacher then....

ok... going to bathe soon... and leave to watch piggie and phoenix perform for platform... heard next week king king kang kang min min gonna perform... should be damn interesting... haha....

and i have spanish class later!! yay...

2006-06-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

alright.... arms are like extremely painful now... i think for the band members are the lips... they took my 3 hours of torture.... but think it was worth it.... except for towards the end... when it was getting so so so extremely loud....

argh.... my arms are aching so much!!!!

hmm... so are my legs.... from that day of yoga.... alright... i'm supposed to hand in the compo entry today... but was teaching the whole day... tmr will hand in... hopefully i can finish it asap man... procrastinating so much.... so more ideas.... not sure how to end the piece.... oh well....

theres definitely a way... i seriously need to teach more....

guess who i met?

well... i dun give a damn anymore....

oh well....

Adios ... Hasta manana... aufwiedesien

2006-06-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

Just came back from BBQ... quite disappointed.... disappointed in the pple... the food... management of things ... oh well.... i was as usual ... at the pit all the time cooking and not eating... luckily i expected it.... bought bubble tea and some snacks before hand.......

i was getting crazy with bbq-ing the chicken wings... at the last batch i was literally "frying" the wings.... i just keep putting oil on the wings....non stop.... i created somehow a "smoky" scene... and the "neh-mind" joke...

hmm... had a wonderful yoga session... 1 and a half hour of stretching.... i never knew females could have so much strength manz.... and how much they can stretch.... not sure if a guy can actually do certain postures.... abit obstructive... and painful... haha....

oh... had a fun german lesson... was damn blur at first.... coz like they talking in some weird language... but soon i learnt that they were like just repeating.... and saying crap.... ALAN IS DAMN FUNNY LA .... " Ich bin Heiss..." MUAHhhaha.... damn funny... it should be Du ist fettig... MUAHAHHAHAHahhahahaha.....

damn funny.... cheers!!! composing time ....

Ciaoz....

2006-06-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

Alright.... i just missed a step before dinner... now my ankle is a little sore... damn it.... i hate when this happens... thank god i didn't fall like with my double clarinet case, it would have been quite a sight!!!

had syo today.... quite a good rehearsal i would say.... just that quite disappointed with the winds... coz of the missing pple... but it was a generally nice sound except certain points of time in gadfly....

hopefully my ankle won't swell.... sianz.... need to practise soon... alot of things ahead... alright....nights....

cheers

2006-06-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Alright.... went to afan .... quite fun.... music as imagery or colours..... how cool to be perfect pitch... u see colours with sound.... but fortunately.... i don't have it... or i'll be like painting colours my whole life listening to different sounds....

went to syo.... gadfly was disappointing.... started out with like no bassoons and only trumpets for brass.... soon they came.... and there wasn't much time left for any adjustments... just played through... we seriously need to get the saxes soon... if not theres no time for adjustments....

oh ... i am being exploited again... haha....oh well.... what to do.... not sure whats gonna happen... lets hope for the best....

alright... tmr.... should be a long day.... quite excited about jerusalem dreaming... harmonic overtone singing!!!!!!! i love it..... alright... ciaoz.... cheers!!!

daniel Pignix

2006-06-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Alright alright.... think my blog looks damn nice... All thanks to Ms wendy!!!! for making this skin... thought its alittle plain... but thats what i want.... THANK YOU WENDY !!!!!!!!!!

never knew she could be such a whiz at doing such stuff.... i told her i wanted a new blog skin thingy at 6... and by 10 + i got it... wahahaha.... power sia....

think i'll be blogging more often these days... yay!!!!!

more updates later..........

cheers....

Daniel Pignix

2006-05-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

Alright... everyone's asking me to blog.... alright... fine... I'm back... I'll try to update as often as possible ok?

Ok... many things have been happening since i last blogged... well... very pleasant things happened... very unpleasant things happened too.... thats life isn't it?

oh well....

Lets just begin my blogging from here...

Just came home from pw rehearsal.... damn tiring i would say...went through Der Rosenkavalier ... and rehearsed after that.... really tiring but also a test for stamina.... it'll be the last piece for the whole programme... what a way to end off the concert with such a siong piece...

after rehearsal... wanted to go to old airport to eat... then still close.... so went to Bedok interchange to try my luck.... immediately i wanted to eat Aw lua... haha... and then i got myself a bowl of Shui jiao Mee sua and a glass of longan water thingy.... damn full... damn sinful la... haha... i felt like i burnt a hole in my wallet... but its worth it... spending quality time with myself....

Muackz... i love you....

have been doing yoga everyday... except saturdays.... i see myself being more flexible.... but i still can't lift my legs while lying down.... damn painful... other than that... ASHTANGA LED ROCKS !!!!!!!!!! its beats any workout u ever done in ur life...

ahah... think i need to sleep liao.... damn sleepy.... gtg... cheers!!!

2005-11-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

Currently in Nafa Computer Lab... the school's quite a dead town now actually... haha... going to watch Just Like Heaven with yiling later at marina.... First time in history that my blog is actually blogged before 10pm... its 6.51pm now...

Had lesson just now.... think she's teaching another way of playing now.... kinda weird to learn this now as i've been doing the other way for like since the beginning of nafa... well... will train la...

The funniest thing just happened to me during dinner.... went to the bugis market to have nasi lemak... alright... not nasi lemak... just from that stall la... had bee hoon kway teow , with chicken wing, tao kua and long beans... sat at the table with a middle aged couple.... apparently... the lady got bitten by her pet ( think its either a hamster or some kind of a young of an animal la...) at her puny finger.... dunno which one la... when they noticed that i'm listening to their conversation... they'll immediately switch to cantonese... like HELLO???? i understand all dialects la !!! haha.... then the boyfriend or husband was like making such a big fuss that she should see a doctor or put some medication.... for like the whole meal... i was completing my meal... and i left the chicken drumstick for the end....

i was finishing the meat already... then ......... being my usual self... i chewed on the bone and spit(not spit literally la...) out the bones in bits.... just then... i noticed that there wasn't any sound from them anymore.... then i raised my head and took a glance at them... then the lady was like in shock and was whispering like " he's chewing the bones!!!!! " to her husband/boyfriend... like wtf? can't i enjoy my meal like in peace? when i saw her whispering ... i was already on my feet and ready to go...i was so controlling myself not to chew the other bones loudly la.... just that the drumstick had the extra "crunch" to it... if she noticed... i was already chewing non-stop throughout the meal... MUAHhahahaha.... so damn funny la.... but i know the husband/boyfriend was like looking at me quite 'scared' ... haha.... aiyah... but i just left....

before i came to school.. i was damn suay la.... the usual stomachache... made me wasted more time in the bathroom.... went down... saw the bus to the interchange left... ARGh..... waited for a short while... then the next bus came.... heng ah... then reached the interchange.... like so many pple obstructing the freaking way to the mrt station la... haha.... its like... theres not many pple around... but the pple there are like scattered all over.... and obstructing the whole damn bloody place!!! .....

reached the station.... BOON LAY ARRIVED (blinking in red[pinkish rather]) ..... sian.... then got to wait.... while waiting...i was perspiring like crazy.... though it was raining and i was feeling quite cold actually.... could smell myself... HAUauahhahaha...... then the freaking train was so slow to bugis la... i could have reached at 2.30 and be alittle late for lesson.... but reached at 2.40 and reached at 2.45 in school.... damn la.... waste my time.... then since there was no booking chart.... the rooms were like free for all to use... natalia went to the Pink room... and sat there... reached.... set up my instrument... then talked about my clarinet exam last week... was talking halfway... then this year one came in.... shan't name who..... but he's an interesting individual.... he opened the door then like stoned for awhile... then i told him... i'm having lesson... then he just stood there... LIKE WTF?!?!? don't understand english? then he asked what time we using until... "by 4" .... he he took a book out.... then after awhile.... came in again... at least he said sorry... then natalia was like " no no.... its ok...you can walk in and out as much as you want... " .... Muahhahaha.... so damn funny sia.....

it wasn't 4 yet.... that bloody idiot kept walking pass the room and looking through the glass(plastic rather) panel .... so pissifying la !!!..... about 3 mins before 4.... he saw me packing up... then he just rudely walked into the room.... so attitude... freaking inghdoo idiot.... by now... those in nafa.... should know who it is....

went to shine korea to get some snacks for later... haha... bought the fried bread again... nice la... to me and yiling at least... aha.... and a pizza snack... wah... the koreans damn good... the crackers really taste like pizza sia.... not like the usual singaporean 'imitations' of pizza snacks...

haha.... very random rantings.... no specific chronological order... oh well.... who cares? Coz i love Pancakes!!!!!

Cheers!!!!!! oh... i found this extremely fun game at w w w . 4 3 9 9 . c o m its a shooting game... damn nice.... hahaha.......

2005-11-19T21:10:00.001+08:00

It's been a month since the last blog...

Hmm... quite a number of things happened, some significant, some not, some worth mentioning, some not, some worth pondering about, some not, some worth the time to type out, some not, some worth talking about, some not. so what have been happening?

well... firstly, i failed my history instantly, because i was 1 hour late for the paper, which i thought was supposed to be at 11, turned out to be at 10, some say they wanted to call, but the action was not carried out, so no point mentioning, it was my fault not clarifying things, so its my fault not theirs.

passed my orchestration with a rather low mark by my own standards of orchestration marks, some would say i'm crazy, but certain subjects i just have my own expectations, the 3 marks lost is not acceptable for me... i didn't prepare enough for this exam, tsk...

had my practical exam, didn't do justice to my etudes, think i did fairly well for my scales except minor scales( I HATE MINOR SCALES !!! ) ... didn't test me on diminished 7th... argh... that was my bestest thing...

finally went down to syo... almost forgot which bus to take... thats how long man... well... thursday didn't get to play glinka, but covered yi xin's part... went today... started with glinka... went late... coz i woke up... damn clock showed 12... but it was 1.20 already!!! went to bathe... leaving... WHERE'S MY CLARINET? its in school !!!!!!! arghs....... called alan to ask mrs wong to get the A... reached late... had to use weiling's clarinet... so paiseh man... didnt bring mouthpiece also... coz it was in that case... thanks weiling!!!!! very nice clarinet.... 54 years old... mouthpiece very nice to play.... just that the clarinet abit temperamental... haha... can feel it one... even she agrees.... first time in my life i kena ticked off by my section desk mate... " please practise your part " .... that is the first time ever that i kena such a stupid remark... fine.... i wasn't fantastic... so are you.... i just needed to be reminded of what i used to play weeks back... was back on form... then ok already... diao me somemore siah..... frikandel....

first time in my life that the conductor actually said my name in front of the whole orchestra and said nice things.... but i guess it was to a certain degree.... sarcastic.... but at least now i've got a reason to live up to my own name.... coz there is a level of identity already... finally gotten my cert of participation... for the compo comp.... haha... so malu sia.... but nvm la...

went back to pyss... hmm... heard they didn't do much the whole day... reached at exactly when they were dismissed... feel rather insignificant when i went back...but maybe thats how just i feel... or maybe not... hmm.... whatever the case... they'll see me for the next 1 and a half months...

whatever the case.... some things are insignificant in my life...yours too... some are just mentioned because it just struck me... some are just forgotten... some not worth mentioning even though i think it should be mentioned but i just can't recall... some things just didn't happened.... some happened eventhough it shouldn't.... oh well.... thats life for all of you... at least to me.....

cheers...

2005-11-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

2005-10-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

alright... alright.... its time to blog.... i've completed my composition for my composition exam... which is like due on friday...and i absolutely have no time for rehearsals... because i have snyo woodwind quintet performance at esplanade concourse for wednesday and thursday evening... die manz....

i've got history 90 min recital programme notes due on thursday which i absolutely am so bloody dead for it... have concerto competition on thursday as well which i am so absolutely sure that i'm going to thoroughly throw my face... NO QUALMS about it...

and friday is like the composition exam which i have no time to rehearse Liyang whom i just gave the score today because poor evelyn is sick for the past week and can't sing for me... and poor yun qi has like tonnes of compositions to play for... DIE la....... this two weeks is so screwed up.... have like concert portfolio.... harmony portfolio to hand in next week.... harmony media presentation next week which no one in the group has actually done it because of the lack of time ...... argh... life sucks.....

school sucks.... nafa chamber orchestra sucks... nafa symphonic wind ensemble sucks.... life sucks.... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

2005-10-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

alright.... just got home from rehearsal... damn tired... had principal study ... had to change alot of my old habits... not necessarily bad.... because i got used to it... but it'll help me in the long run la...

rehearsal was very very tiring... alot of tonguing things... wah kao... just when i was in the worse state of my tonguing... suddenly drowned with so many tonguing things.... die sia....

gotten some reeds from natalia... so nice of her.... alot of questions going through .... lots of mental thoughts.... haiz.... life goes on....

saw certain things in the concert... or after the concert rather... damn pissed and irritated... ARGH !!!!!!!!!

2005-10-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

FKUC YOU !!!!!!!!
Alright... just wanted to get that off my fkucing bloody chest!!!!
Freaking annoyed with certain creatures in the asylum that we go to every single day!!!
FKCU YOU !!! just because you are the grupe lieder and stewdans' ASS then you can do whatever you want? just because i woke up late and i even msged all my bloddy chords in the msg... you fkucing hell said i didnt contribute and dare to say " oh... i didn't even bother to read your msg" HWAT HET LLEH !!!!!!!!!! AT LEAST I EVEN BOTHERED TO MESSAGE YOU , YOU FKUCING FKUC OF A BLOODY FKUCING SWINE !!!!!!!!!!!

on a more personal note.... YOU SUCK BIG TIME !!!!!!!!!!!! YOU BLOODY PIG !!!!!!!

thats all i want to blog for now.... cheers... YOU SUCK YOU FKUCING PIG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

Life's getting so so so much more interesting now...and intriguing as well...

Found out there are more people hating me in school... Like What's new anyway? I don't like them either... lets not be discreet about it... I wanna bitch about you openly... not discreetly coz that's just gossip...

Found out that i love harmony more than other subjects... haha.... and there are many potential good composers and orchestrators in class... damn... i'm losing out now... and i ABSOLUTELY HATE history...

Ok... i'm quite dead for history presentation and essay... not sure if she's deducting marks for everyday of not handing up... thought of just handing in on the full submission date... but haiz... got to start soon....

wasted time going down for yo... supposed to play glinka... but didnt... wasted my time waiting for a cab and eventually calling for a cab... bloddy hell... wasted my time.... and money!

starting to understand the concepts for clarinet playing... after so long and sitting down in a studio to do things really slowly(that's if i dun get distracted and frustrated with slow)... yah... getting things done i feel.... in a faster manner... would help... the scales are killing me quite bad... haha...

aiyah.... things are going fine in some aspects... but some are quite bad la.... cheerios... life is getting very interesting soon....

2005-08-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

FINE FINE ... Huien... i'm updating my blog...and everyone else...i'll update my blog now....

Happy?

Ok... these few months.... loads of things happened... too much to say within this period of time.... went to kerkrade( a small town in holland ) with philwinds for the WMC 2005... we managed to get a Gold with distinction ... putting us 1st in Asia... 5th in the world... muahahah...went to masstricht... aachen... freiburg... franfurt... cologne... very nice culture in the netherlands... don't like the germans... very coloured-based... if u know what i mean...

started school with jet lag.... haha... all my lessons are very good now... except... aural and history... aural... think nothing can be taught... need to practise.... history... hated it ever since i got rejected for doing schubert.... blooddy hell... idiot....

hahh...

hmm... many drama scenes in nafa... very exciting school life... i'm in basically all performing ensembles in school.. haha... seriously... and i have outside committments as well.... how busy i can be... explaining the lack of time for blogging... ( rolls my eyes at lightning speed )... MUAHah..

starting to teach again... after 2 months of hibernation... if they don't sound as good as before i left ( which wasn't very good at all ) .... i have some serious actions to carry out... i'll need to warm up my voice everytime i teach... so that i can really shout at those pple.... shan't use other adjectives... which shouldn't be the case... hmm... what am i talking about?

aiyah... enough...just to show that i'm alive and ready to kill anyone who gets in my way! cheerios!

2005-06-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

Alright... i've not blogged for ages.... more than 1 month sia... haha... some of you might be really pissed with an un-updated blog.... oh well.... here i am !

hmmm.... been through quite alot during this 1 month... Aiband... Titans band... SangNila rehearsal... might have to play for NDP which i'm so looking forward to...hopefully....

Aiband... coming along fine .... i guess... haha... the seniors trying to push themselves more ... i can see.... the sec 1s are totally bored with just one scale , which they can't even play, so i don't see what's so boring about it... play that scale well and every note in it and we can do some simple tunes....

i have came up with the term --- short-attention-span-screwed-up-idiots... well.... don't disagree... coz u guys just keep complaining when you can't play a simple scale...... PROVE TO ME first... then we'll talk.... learn to at least take some steps crawling... than trying to do somersauts whilst flying....

The Titans took part in the balloon hat festival at sentosa... quite a good experience... think the results for best band and design will be out soon....

Sangnila 1st combined rehearsal will be tmr... right after the padang rehearsal... damn... gonna be damn rush....

haha... i'm damn tired la... woke up at 5.30am came home at 9pm... sianz..... till next time.... cheers and practise!!!

2005-05-15T02:42:00.000+08:00

Hmm... haven't been blogging forso long. it seems weird... haha...

oh well...haven't been teaching... mid-year exams... hmm... practise hasn't been really good... tone sucks... tonguing sucks...but improving, need to get lessons quick... need tone tone tone!

have been watching quite a number of performances lately, Harp recital, soprano rectial, Stand up comedy by hossan leong and selena tan, tjchoir, SSO, recitals by year 3s. yeah.watching more to come. Hilary hahn, Vjchoir, AcChoir.

haiz... school's gonna start soon. can already see all the problems that will come. procrastinating so damn badly... and i dun seem to give a damn... ahha....

gonna start teaching soon... source of income is back... HAHa.... got to save up the money i spent... now theres a reason to save up for.... had a reason... but that was the past... now is for the future... haha...

oh well... its 3am and i'm still not sleeping... haha...

till then...cheers!

2005-04-29T03:52:00.000+08:00

Finished watching " Princess Mononoke "... hahah.... and the presentation by the AICB members... oh so touched.... can really see the transformation in all of them... damn drastic sia...

really quite a sad thing to see such a good batch of students steeping down.... heartache man... when i just started to work so well with them...

tears were shed....

A new batch of leaders was born as well... some unexpected posts... oh well... will try to think of a way to change it.... some pple just do not deserve the post...

went to macdonald's for brunchner (breakfast+lunch+dinner) ... had some word power game... i was obviously on my wits' end... just proved that vocab isn't strong... which i already knew from the start... muahahahaaaaaa

went to cut my hair.... nice... i like.... this lady cut better than the other guy.... though she alittle unstable with her tools... haha... but i like it la....

went to jog.... strangely... i never pant at all... was as though i was walking normally.... just that i was perspiring so badly.... haha....

then ate my supper.... muahaha.... jogging gone wasted... but who cares... its for health's sake... hahaha.... doing both is for health's sake... hahaha...

gtg... signing off...

2005-04-28T03:54:00.000+08:00

ok.... its almost 4am... just watched "The Notebook".... awesome movie.... thank god i didn't watch it in the cinema.... i'll be crying like crazy... haha... about the blogger skin... who cares if its not masculine and more feminine? who decides all these?

its up to the personal preference... i personally just chose it coz it is in all black... and if its just boxes in the screen... i find it too boring... so just add a little angel...

morning....

signing off... will update more often soon...

2005-04-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

Its getting late... its tuesday morning... here i am....

Progress of Ahmad Ibrahim... very good.... sounding much better.... could be better... much better given what they had given me before... Get yourself what you deserve... work for it... don't blame it on the conductor... i cannot do anything to help you... you got to help yourself...

took 3 clarinetists out... made that tough decision... band sounds better without them... too bad la... you got to make the cut...

results of 1st day was disappointing... no C.O.Ps... eventhough there should be some given out... got to see later's judging...

should be quite a tough fight both in the morning and afternoon.... till then... good luck springfield!!!!!!

2005-04-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

Yo no naci sino para quereros;
Mi alma os ha cortado a su medida;
Por Habito del alma misma os quiero.

Escrito esta en mi alma vuestro gesto;
Yo lo leo tan solo que aun de vos me
guardo en esto.

Quanto tengo confiesso yo deveros;
Por vos naci, por vos tengo la vida,
Y por vos e de morir y por vos muero

Translation:

I was born to love only you;
My soul has formed you to its measure;
I want you as a garment for my soul.

Your very image is written on my soul;
such indescribable intimacy
I hide even from you.

All that I have, I owe to you;
For you I was born, for you I live,
for you i must die, and for you
I give my last breaht.

awwwwwwwwww.............. so sweet huh?

some things shouldn't be said in English, other languages make it sound so much more 'refined and close' comparatively. French, German, Spanish, Japanese ... anything... But MUSIC is even stronger... its explains and says whatever that cannot be put into words by people ( the composers) , music has to touch the audience inorder to make it a good performance.

Long hours of rehearsals, running rounds, the tears, the sweat, the laughters, the joy and the angst during the many months of preparation... For what? Just for the Medal in the end? the reward? Character building is still the most important, BONDING ...

haiz... if you keep working towards the medal... nothing will ever be achieved... just see what you can do to your best today and we'll see what we can get today, not tomorrow... tomorrow will be a different day, we can never predict what's gonna happen tomorrow.

Emotions... music is about displaying emotions... just feel the music... the best music touches the heart... throw yourself into the music... get into the atmosphere... heard of rehearsals of famous orchestras in the past that when they rehearse a sad piece and really get into the mood... after the piece finishes, they'll break into tears. Music is that powerful, don't ever underestimate the power of music.

Hope people will understand ... Music is about touching the audience... not getting a medal... what's the point if you can play all the notes on the page and not make any music?

Making Music is an Art... playing notes is just plain primitive...

2005-03-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

ok... its late... keep things short...

went for 2 music exchange.... the band sounded loud for their size... haha... probably coz of the training in their absolutely cannot make it hall... haha...oh well... think its my fault that they are making the mistakes... they are confident... but i'm not .... really weird... got to boost my confidence... seems like i've lost the stage presence... haiz....

band spirit getting stronger... problems getting less... good thing... less than a month to syf and i don't see any more things i can improve... its up to them now to practise that extra mile to make wrongs to rights...

need to balance abit more and blend alittle more... soloists should be more soloistic... haha....

erm... life's getting quite good...

just had a concert... squeaked damn bloody loud... bloody pissed with myself... damn it... got to start practising harder... damn it...

got to.... alot of things.... haiz.... plan plan plan... think think.... ciuz

2005-02-26T02:52:00.000+08:00

Here i am.... on this very weird and unearthly hour.... still awake.... haha.... just came home from a movie ; Lemony Snickets A series of unfortunate events.... quite a nice show i would say.... maybe could have more unfortunate events going on la.... love the elf's song... haha.... keep laughing.... love the baby man... real talent for such a young age... haha.... hmm... wont talk much about the movie la.... since its not out yet....

watched Howl's moving castle few days back... on thursday night with Sheryl, JunXiang, Eugene and Yan wen... damn nice movie.... damn nice soundtrack... will get the DVD and OST when it comes out... muahha.... maybe the poster as well... hahaha .... hmmm.... maybe should get the comic....

watched I DO I DO also.... on monday i think..... not sure.... or something la.... hilarious show... but the graphics not very the good though.... the worse of all Jack Neo's films.... very funny i tell u... 'A' for " ang moh tan" ... 'B' for "Ba duku" ... 'C' for "cee gueh".... muahhahahha......

I am on Movie mode.... its like 3 am now.... i need to sleep !!!!!!!!!!!!! i have band and orchestra later..... hahah............. OH ... i just remembered.... i watched Hide and seek also.... hahah..... not gonna talk about it..... Split persona....

hmmm.... this week.... taught very little... went for nafa band... forgot to bring score... it was somewhere else.... went ahmad .... finally made them play properly again... althought Sg Rhap needs lots of work manz.......

hmm.... today's joseph's bdae..... shit......... havent prepare anything.... damn....... gtg..... 3 hours to sleep....

2005-02-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

ok... sunday.... went to geraldine's house for new year... gosh... her mum really gave many ang bao's man.... really nice of her to invite all of us... gambled here and there...went to bugis after awhile... weird pple.... went to bugis.... went to take neoprint... which was what they intended to do since before leaving geraldine's house.... took neo print... saw this couple ... ang moh lady and a chinese guy... think he can be her son man.... kaoz... haha... the neo prints turned out quite nice... after that went to arcade... hmm... really weird to see joseph screaming so loudly at a game... haha.... saw many weird pple playing in the arcade... perucssion freaks .... some funny game woman ... etc...really weird.... then went back to geraldine's place.... had steamboat dinner.... hmm.... never knew there were ever any chilli to be better than my mum's.... geraldine's mum made the best chilli on earth manz... really spicy and stuff... haha... was like bathing in perspiration after the whole thing....

.... started gambling... lost money... won some ... then lost again... haha.... oh well... only do this once a year anyway.... then had 2 mandarin oranges... and ate steamboat after that again...really bloated man... have been eating the whole day.... tidbits made by geraldine's mum... steamboat... and all... new year is the worst time for pple on diets... ahhaha... geraldine's mum was kind enough to send us home after the whole thing... really touched...

monday valentine's ... went to spf.... bought roses before that to give pple.... then went there to teach... one week break... lost touch liao... sian... got to slowly work again... then damn sian la... no energy... haha.... oh well.... they'll be able to do it....

tuesday.... hmm... what did i do?... was at home the whole day... watch tv... went to school to practise... tone getting back... but its the tonguing now... really atrocious... cannot tongue fast at all... really dead man.... if i want to go overseas with this current standard... Dream on Daniel...

wednesday.... went to school to get my mic... went to get reeds... went to teach... started with bad attendance... but sound was good.... amazing... dynamics are out.... getting there... tempo changes are better.... can be more steady though.... pple starting to work out things i feel.... recorded... very pleased with the result.... got a funny letter from a parent.... oh well... the promise is broken no matter what... bullshit manz.... nvm then... good luck in other sections in the future.. hahah.... gtg.... ciaoz....

2005-02-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

Ok its quite late.... got to go for spf band later.... weeks just fly past in an instance.... first it was new year.... now it's lunar new year... what next? this week... hmm... skipped nafa band.... went to spf to teach... but just managed to test mouthpieces for those kids.... hmm... quite amazed at how much a mouthpiece can change a person's tone.... lingyun amazed me the most... a B45. mouthpiece actually changed her tone tremendously.... her tone at that moment was exactly what a tutor would want from the student.... she did it without knowing it... haha... lets see her tone later...

by then... i was running late.... took a cab from spf to teach somewhere else.... reached there... they were waiting for their 'mother' ... an ex teacher in charge who was going somewhere... promoted or some sort... yeah.... she signed my paper to approve me of my job... haha... thank you...

hmm... their clarinet section ... made up of different people of sorts.... was amazed at their scale.... no intonation problem and stuff.... why did they ask me to tutor them? they are like my standard lor.... oh well... they just need someone to make them play together.... thats all... haha... got to the piece... hmm.... technical problems.... no worries... with my metronome beats and shoutings.... they pulled through... played very together together towards the end.... dynamics and everything was executed well.... hope they can get a good medal.... really hope so.... hmm... didnt get to do the beginning of the piece.... did the back first... more worrying part.... haha.... the beginning mostly unison running notes and alittle of chorale style.... should be can la.... smart bunch of pple....

tuesday.... hmm.... what did i do?........ went ah ma's place to have lunch... went home.... then went giordano to get my jeans... haha... bought a pair which was alittle big.... but they say can exchange when the stock arrives.... then took mrt and bus to my ah ma's place again for dinner... went home.... watch tv.... count down.... this year's lunar new year has like lost its meaning somehow... no one was looking forward to it and all....

wednesday.... woke up alittle late... bathed.... went to godma's place.... met this cousin of theirs.... they always comparing me and their son who is of the same age la... muahhaa.... wah.... was damn shocked to see him all buffed up and stuff... he's in tp's dragon boat... that explains it.... his freaking fats all became his muscles.... but damn disgusting looking la.... body big but head alittle small for proportion... haha.....

then went to waipo's place.... watched dvd... damn freaking loud.... then ate steamboat.... haha.... pretty boring la.... went to ah ma's place for dinner after that again.... then went home........

thursday...... hmm.... was at home the whole day..... chatted with Rudi who was flying off to france to study coz his dad got posted there........

friday... which just passed... went to watch movie..... with the kids....... of which 2 didnt go to school... one was '''''''sick''''''''' ... one was lazy........ oh well... they have to take charge of their own lives ... wont do much ...... constantine.... hmm.... thought it was gonna be great.... turned out just mediocre.... haha.... can't wait till 'hide and seek' comes out .... feel that its gonna be quite creepy and freaky... haha....

then went to giordano to change my jeans.... turns out its almost out of stock.... even from the warehouse... chances of getting to change.... ZERO........ nvm then... just got to live with this pair... what are belts for anyway? ahaha....

went to the century square food court.... jodie spilled soup on her hp and wallet... muahaha... how stupid can she get? hahaha.... then went to the giordano at century ... " oh sorry... we don't bring in this design..." .... what the hell? theres such thing?....... then went to take the mrt.... to marina to meet them for dinner.... dinner turned out bad... so little pple went.... food sucked.... everything was so oily... quite bad la.... then went adrian's place to gamble.... blackjack.... won about $4 $5.... hahah.... drank water finally.... watch south park and part of scary movie 3.... haha....

should have went to teach today.... eventhough not getting paid.... coz it wasnt worth going for the dinner.... damn... never mind la... just found out the exchange is not next week.... haha... keep rushing them dunno for wad.... oh well... they better buck up.........

people are starting to stare at me again... i have no idea why.... weird pple........ gtg tata.... bon voyage Rudi.... goodluck in france.....

2005-02-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

Just changed to skin for my blog at this unearthly hour, should be sleeping now.... will sleep soon...

this week... hmm.... went to spf on sat.. had syo assessment before that... wasn't really feeling well... and all the ulcers and stuff.... screwed up... really expecting to get demoted to training orchestra... played really badly.... hoped the slow piece helped alittle....

went to spf for band.... hmm... improved alot already.... getting there.... but certain sections that need to come out don't really come out.... oh well.... at least its improving.....

ai .... hmm.... dropped alot over the week.... but finally managed to poull through their fatigue and go back on track again.... improved towards the end of the friday session... must talk so much then will improve.... idiots.... haha.... i know some of them are reading this.... please spend time on ur preparation of syf.... mentally.... most importantly....

went to chinatown with the 4 kids... muahah.... Eugene... joseph.... lin yun and jermaine... stephanie was too tired to go.... jodie... er.... got pang seh by us... coz she didnt hear the change of venue to meet... and waited for one hour.... then she finally called us.... who wouldn't be pissed? haha....

he came down to ai on thursday.... not sure for wad... sure didnt make any improvements... no qualms about it... taught the sec 1s.... were less enthu at the beginning.... but started to open up... there was a rhythm-idiot amidst them... completely have no rhythm sense... not sure how she gonna make it in band.... she'll survive in choir very well though.... and some mischeivious boys....want to play play.... but cannot do what i ask for.... what's the point? its those who play and can do what is instructed that are good.....

hmm... sundays are fully at home day.... have decided to do that... need a break.... haha.... hahah.... erps.... erp .... erp calling(earth calling).... haha.... lame.... lame.... super... lame....

muahahahhahahahahahahahhahahhHHHHHhahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAhHAha

2005-02-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok... tuesday... woke up late as usual..... but was awaken by a call in the morning... from a teacher in tpjc regarding as being the clairnet tutor for the band... well... got the job !!!! yay!!!! haha... the rate abit low .... but oh well... at least its better than what i'm getting from somewhere... MUAhahaha....

went to tpjc to sign the application form...

went to cut my hair at Supercut... not bad i would say... service definitely better...but u pay $10 more la... haha... oh well... its a luxury la.... not saying i cut my hair every week or something.... its once a month... hHAhah.... like period... oops... where am i leading to?

bought Drumline... a DVD... oh well... was damn happy when i bought it... heard so much good about it... but turn out... thats all they've got? not that good afterall la... maybe they could have done more display... oh well... its a movie...

wanted to go school... but decided not to.... decided to come home to pract... on my com... on the dvd... watched it...it was already 8+9...cannot practise la... pple sure complain... there goes another... i have an Snyo assessment on sat which i completely havent prepared for... have wednesday ... thursday and friday... hopefully i won't be too mentally drained to play on these days....

oh well... many people getting depressed these days.... not sure why... the end of the world is coming....

I've been saying things differently from what i want to say... its weird... another day of teaching tmr... hopefully it'll be better than last week... and even better next week or even on thursday...got to try to wake up some of the members... too complacent...

2005-01-31T23:07:00.000+08:00

Time to blog... After one whole month...haha... sure alot of things happened...stopping school for half a year... starting teaching bands... and now band... got allocated to the first first i teach... Ahmad ibrahim secondary school concert band... was a military band... but changed to concert band... which they shouldn't have coz it affected their attitude in band... concert band sort of more slack...

oh well... they're definitely improving ... kind of like them alot manz... but "shouldn't be too emotionally attached" to them as Gim Kai said... but well... we're humans afterall, its inevitable la... oh well... they're a super smart bunch of people... "music needs intelligence" as Kenrick put it... i totally agree... especially for Choir... choral singing is just plain intellectual... you need to feel your inner body... haha... you need to know these things... its simply intellectual lah... look at the top choirs... all coming from the top ranking schools...

whereas for band... there are exceptions... you don't need brains... not literally... but yah... you know what i mean... you just need to be taught and drilled like many schools do... st pats... yuhua... they aren't the top ranking schools... but they are the top ranking bands... yuhua especially... they have been getting gold ever since the beginning of syf... haha... i think... maybe exaggerating... but yah...

ok ... back to life... hmm... it was or it is rather... the same every single week.... mondays for nafa band... tuesday to teach jyss... wednesday for wlds sec... thursday and friday for ahmad ibrahim (thursday occasionally for syno depending on schedule) ... saturday... syno... alumni band... spf band pract... then audioimage in the evening... sunday usually slack at home... if not i'll go somewhere for coffee and to read... haha...

yah.... skipped nafa band last week... woke up damn late... decided not to go... went for spf band pract... the two guys in clarinet section having problems... from best buds to cold war enemies... kids... the 3 problematic sec 2 girls... farhanna... mandy and joddie... and the other hopeless girl wen qian... farhanna and mandy skipped band pract on sat... and eventually came down in the end... but werent allowed to play....... I think... joddie is regular... but still can't seem to play...
wen qian havent been coming coz her mum doesnt allow... what crap? CCA is part of school activities!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! havent been coming... never practise... so i leave her to one side to practise herself....

oh well... who knows... they complained to the seniors on the following week about not liking me... hmm... not as though i like them? well.... they were forced to tell who didnt like who in the clarinet section... think it was the best thing done to them by lisa and sheryl and whosoever...

oh well... spf better buck up... and work harder... dropped so much...

come on... work hard... hahahah

2004-12-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

back from thailand... well... afew days already la... haha... well... can see many of us had 'jet lag'... haha... well... all come back seh.... haha....
bought quite alot of stuff.... shopping was quite good... food was good as well... but just wished we could eat other meat stuff other than just fish fish fish... haha... we eat so many eggs every morning.... can't we just have chicken?hahah....
competition was quite good.... the feel was there.... my solo sucked.... but i'm quite happy.... judging from listening to other singapore band's solo... MUAHhahaha.... oh well... self consolation... oh well.... enjoyed ourselves.... shopped for 3 4 days... haha.... kept asking for more shopping time... damn funny la we all...
went to dream world... quite boring... but we made it fun... haha.... first we sat the water ride... where the 'boat' moves up... and slides down... like big splash... then the water will splash on us... haha... we took like ... no... i took like 7 times.... we took 5 times... then another 2 times i join another bunch of juniors.... then we were all drenched... damn fun.. haha... then went to take the flying carpet.... which dried my hair and shirt... haha... then went to this spinning ride.... which was like a washing machine... haha...
had lunch.... buffett lunch in dream world.... finally had some meat... pork curry... fried pork... haha... and dunno wad la.... the soup was quite nice.... like thai food... very singapore... haha.... then had chin chow ... besides being damn sweet... the chin chow was very smooth and nice.. haha.... then after lunch.... went to take the viking... whao... that was a killer.... we sat at the two extremes....they labelled the different sections differently... haha.... kindergarten.. primary... secondary... bachelor... doctorate... we sat at the doctorate... boy was it exciting... the was a point of time... where the viking ship was like vertical... and when we went down ... our feets were literally lifted up... damn scary... and the bar was like of no use other than for us to grip on too... quite scary... but very exciting... haha.... went to snow town in dream world... feet and fingers were numb... coz we were wet... oh sat the bumper car... damn scary... cannot move one lor... the bloody car so hard to control... haha... and this freaking thai guy kept coming to bump me... sian.... at snow town.... we took the slide thingy.... everyone was just climbing up all the time... being the crazy us... we formed up in one line to slide down... we were really a problem for those workers below... coz of the weight... we were difficult to stop haha... yah... dunno what to say la.... went to future park to shop... well not really... coz my money was like nothing left... haha... so we went to eat kfc... took their glass... their drinks were served in glass glasses... yah... haha... and its nice... so me and ben took... haha.... bought donuts... bought conditioner.. their conditioner there damn cheap... haha...bought alot of stuff la the whole trip... bought my suit... flirted abit to get a better bargain and our tour guide said couldnt get anymore discount... oh well... let me do it... AHhaha.... tried their glutinous rice with mango... damn good... haha... went to china town... a total waste of time... went mah boon krung... went to chatuchak weekend market... went to thailand cultural centre... went to scb park for the competition... went to carrefour... where else...?hmm... can't remember... oh yah... took a cruise... well... we had dinner on the cruise ship ... small one la... then me and ms wu bought drinks... she bought vodka orange... i bought this B-52 thingy... mixture of kahlua... bailey's and contreaiu... quite nice... then they had this disco thingy... so we went... the band there... the pple quite cute la... entertain us singaporeans... haha.... then there was like two clans competiting on the dance floor... ms sharon tan and mdm ang and ms yvonne tay or tan... they damn on ... dance with us also... haha... the whole dancing thing damn funny la....then we went up... oh ... the cruise ship passed quite a number of landmarks... interesting... went pass many bridges as well... everytime we pass... we would scream... tts when i scream my heart out... shiok.. haha.... went up after the dance session.... then saw pple bin orh orh... haha... dunno what happened la... dun bother... then jack kena molested... haha... violated rather... haha.... damn funny.... by this mid 30's thai uncle... damn funny... hahaha....
did i mentioned i bought a suit? ahah... damn nice... black... my favourite colour... bought a black back pack.... bought a dark blue , almost black jeans... ahaha... 2 black tee shirts.. hahah.... one with a orange koil at the left shoulder area... and one with 'he qi shen cai' characters at the back... damn nice.. and cheap also
hahaha.....
oh well.... can't say everything la... so much.... miss them manz.... haiz.....
had syo concert yesterday... quite good... but programme very short...squeaked towards the end... damn unhappy... weiling hit the high g !!! all of us damn happy... haha... oh well... slacked everyday since touch down... damn sian... bye... cheers...